Phantom Limb

I said I found my phantom limb but I was lying
I said I finally found my place in altar light
But there's nothing in my way that wants me trying
So I'll drown myself and wait for afterlife

I thought I found the perfect hymn that I was writing
I thought I finally made my space in mortal life
But the darkness in the heart's intensifying
So I'll stick around and wait for solar light to come

There's a line that passes through the undercurrent
There's a place on the horizon that I like
Think I'll stay there for a minute and survive, survive, survive
And eventually I'll find that I'll arise

I said I found my missing piece despite the trying
Although I finally found my place in all the lights
Thought of something in the way was terrifying
So I stopped and lied in wait for autumn life

Had a thought about my present state of being
As I walked along the boardwalk late at night
When I looked into the water all my fears were neutralized
And eventually I knew that I was right

I finally found my phantom limb, I wasn't lying
I knew I finally found the spark in normal life
There was something in the way that kept me trying
Now I'm standing here and basking in the light

Now I'm standing here and basking in the light
Feeling love and life reacting in the light
Watch the dark disintegrating in the light
When I die I'll disappear into the light