What I Recall

I buried this so deep
That I forgot that it was there
This fucking thing kept me stagnant
And would leech of my despair
Well they say that someone's eyes
Are the window their soul
And it makes me wonder
If you look at me will you see anything, anything at all?

What I recall
Is nothing but a dream
My youth has expired
And I miss my sanity
I must put this onto paper
With words what I can't seem to place
I write it down to paint a picture of
My blackest days

For ten years straight
I couldn't point it out
But it kept eating on the inside
Can't explain, can't give a reason
That it broke my heart so many times
And I don't believe that it makes me weak to admit that I'm a human being
So dig it up, I can't deny
The sting of life that poisons me
That poisons me

I'm not ashamed
This is what it is
I'd rather tell the truth
Than have you make up shit

I'll carry this with me
Like a brick that is tied to my feet
And that will never
Be cut loose
And though I'm carried by a slower stream
I now believe that life just has its ways
And I will end up, where I need to be
Where I need to be