Not Real Boy

I'm not a real boy, I am only negative energy
I've come to terms with being wrong 'cause I can only be me
When you're imperfect from the get-go, it's a losing war
All I know is that I am and I'm becoming a whore
I hurt the people whom I love and then I drive them away
The way I feel about all things is different from day to day
But then again it doesn't matter anyway, because I'm not a real boy

I'm at the point, I'm fucking tired of apologising
I don't communicate well, I write it down and I sing
I imagine there's a god who isn't happy with me
But what am I anyway when I'm a
Crush me now, prick me later 'cause I'm dead all the same
I'm in the dark and I'm naked, cover me with the shame
But knowing that, I'll never really be anything
'Cause I'm not a real boy

I don't know who I am
I try to understand why if I must I'll do it on my knees
I didn't ask for all this shit
But I'm compelled to live with it
So please have mercy when I say please
Oh please please please

Don't let me get too carried away
Don't let me get too carried away
Don't let me get too carried away
Don't let me get too carried away
Don't let me
Yeah, yeah

My body's dirty, my heart is empty, and my mind is sick
I walk around hard as wood being lead by my dick
Superficial conversations, why can't I be sincere?
But when your truth is relative, tell me why should I care?
I wanna live, I wanna love, but I'm stuck in my head
I got my plans for tomorrow, but I'm already dead
I care a little more about the consequences
But I'm not a real boy

I don't know who I am
I try to understand why if I must I'll do it on my knees
I didn't ask for all this shit
But I'm compelled to live with it
So please have mercy when I say please
Oh please please please

Don't let me get too carried away
Don't let me get too carried away
Don't let me get too carried away
Don't let me get too carried away
Don't let me
Yeah, yeah

I'm your energy but I'm not me
Keep yourself from me so I blame me
I'm your energy but I'm not me
Keep yourself from me so I blame me

I lust too much
I wanna consume your soul
Maybe you'll make me whole
But I lie and distrust
Always the one guilty
I'm my worst enemy
But hear my plea
I'm not me
I want to be free
I'll never be me

Don't let me get too carried away
Don't let me get too carried away
Don't let me get too carried away
Don't let me
Yeah, yeah

Please don't let me get too carried away
Don't let me get too carried away
Don't let me get too carried away
Don't let me get too carried away
Don't let me get too carried away
Don't let me get too carried away
Don't let me get too carried away
Don't let me



Credits
Writer(s): Joseph Whiteford
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