Pain

I ain't playing no games, bring it to a stop
Like the red lights on or Playstation's off
I took a loss, but never lost my balls
When depression came, they wouldn't answer my calls

I felt like them little things in them stalls
Getting pissed on, trying to stay fresh through it all
They kick you when you fall and I fell pretty hard
Trying to get back up, turn my wound into a scar

The moon into a star burn everybody up
Even momma said all I need to do is man up
All I can do is sound good look good and be smart
One thing I can't change is her change of heart

If you focus on pain it'll tear you apart
Blind driving through the rain but the drive is a start
If it's weakness leaving how weak was I
Because it's been 3 months and the pain won't die

I love the pain, it helps me to frown
Smiling's only temporary unless you a clown
It don't be messing around, always comes back around
The more you ignore it, the more it brings you down

Lift my chest off the ground, arms getting stronger
Got my base back, runs are getting longer
I can breathe now, but my chest more heavy
Went from writing love letters hand unsteady

The feeling worthless, my words are petty
Girls coming up, but I'm just not ready
Could be waiting on nothing, might as well just forget me
I ain't complaining, I'm explaining how the pain begets me

I deserve it all, don't try to defend me
I can stand on my own too, so your hand don't lend me
Think slow, right now I'm just venting
Ain't nobody feel me because nobody listens

Nobody's perfect, nobody's witness
I'm trying to be nobody and it tears me apart
The only thing we got in common is nobody's smart

Trying to make it through the night while the vultures surround me
We were way up that current got grounded
Another shot of the crown, because they love to see you down
And when you need them most, nobody's around

No clouds in the sky, but I can't see clear
Looking outside nobody's there
I'm trying to be nobody, nobody's perfect
When I cried out nobody heard it

Feeling worthless, nobody cares
Nobody listens, nobody's always there
When things get tough, nobody has heart
I love nobody, nobody's smart

I look up to nobody, nobody's inspiring
Nobody never left, nobody stood by me
Nobody never cheats, nobody never sins
Me and nobody are real good friends

So here's my little song, I know that you'll like it
Because I got a little secret, nobody helped me write it

Trying to make it through the night while the vultures surround me
We were way up that current got grounded
Another shot of the crown because they love to see you down
And when you need them most, nobody's around
Nobody's around, nobody's around
I said when you need them most, nobody's around
Come on
And just like that pain turns to anger

When you need them most, everybody's going ghost
Served me with papers, gotta watch what I post
Seen you and your man, ya'll doing the most
Taking your party up and down the coast

Give me a belt and a doorway, I ain't needing no rope
Little bitch, go ahead and post another motivational quote
I'll admit what we had was never the greatest
But you let them facetious fuck faces degrade us, stupid hoe

How you gonna act like I failed times a million
When you're the one who failed to see what I was building
Survival of the fittest, now I'm forced to adapt
I was frozen in a bubble, now everybody on that smack

Anxiety nine thousand starting to feel trapped
Pacing in circles I ain't know how to act
Just put the beat on and shift into a trance
This about P not K, I ain't giving you a chance
Stupid, I ain't giving you a chance
Stupid