More Than a Bad Memory

I want to be something more than a bad memory that you regret
I want to be something more than an enemy you wish you could forget
I want to mean more than a four letter word you wish you never said
I want to be more than a liability you wish you never met

I wanna be something more than a bad decision
'Cause I just can't invision you stand in bliss when I'm not the man you're missing
It feels like we spent the whole summer in love
Then when the clouds came we watched our life crumble to dust
Anyway, now we're nothing more than a broken bottle of Henney laid
Over a torn picture in an empty frame
All of our past pain burnt out in our last flame
While our final memory sizzles out in an ashtray
Angel of my nightmares, demon in my dreams
Trust me appearances are never what they seem
All of me is wrong and all of you is right
Everything is black white and filtered through the smoke of a crack pipe
Or a switchblade pressed against your pretty pink lips
While you lick the nicotine from my fingertips
Cocaine from your ribcage burrows from my nose to your throat
As your fingers and your toes curl into my soul

I know-I know I'm not all good
And I know that I'm not perfect
But that doesn't mean you can just leave to to drown in regret
Bathing in the blood of my own self-hatred
I don't think you know what it's like to have a constant ache in your stomach
Telling me that no matter how hard I try
I'll never be able to cover up the darkness that overwhelms my soul and spirit
I feel like I've been bleeding my emotions out of my forearms
And I'm almost at my last drop
(Take a look at the monster you made of me)
Just soaking into my bones
And my skin
And my heart
Take a look at the
Monster

I want to be something more than a bad memory that you regret
I want to be something more than an enemy you wish you could forget
I want to mean more than a four-letter word you wish you never said
I want to be more than a liability you wish you never met