Life Like This

I can't believe i live a life like this
I can't believe i live a life like this.hopeless

Is life harder than trying your best not to impress
But to kill the stress pulling strings under your chest
In God's grace i manifest living free minded
Took the word out of brothers
Yet i seem so unguided
By depression and the pain some seen but can't explain
Sometimes you let emotions burn deep but can't complain
Like wishing it could snow in the process of rain
I dream about joy but i seem to miss the miracle train
There it goes again
Living me behind from its travel
A beautiful struggle in trouble i'm the leading example
We learn from mistakes but i seem to get injured in battle
I reach for my sword
That has always had my back years ago
Growing up without a mum got ma feeling so numb
Men i pray to God daily waiting if she's gonna come
Like dear lord you took something that was special to me
Like Steve sometimes i wonder if i'll see
Who is next in my dreams
The worse comes to worse what if i see me myself and i
Everybody got to die
But i hate to see a grown man cry
Look in the sky the only way up going to Heaven
I less believe in hell how the hell can i trust Satan
I keep writing these letters that make up a word born
Its not too much pride where i am coming from
So i write a song for the angels watching over me
So dear mama
I hope you understand these words
I know that in the past days i really gotchu upset
I was absurd and ignorant by driving you mad
Thought in a minute i could really come through like my dad
Now its sad you can look at the way we live
We still fighting over things that are priceless gees
You were my princess a queen with a love neckless
Ever since i broke your charm you became reckless
I'll behave
Plus i'm thinking that i should be saved
You've got a car didn't you see that little guy who waved
He was jumping up and down tryna catch your face
That's when you switched to third gear
Can he catch that pace
Things i might've chased weren't pleasing you at all
Now its burning but my heart can't stop drop and roll
I was hoping i should stand but you wanted me to fall
Now i feel i understand that you really didn't know how i feel
Its difficult for me to stand still
Gravity will pull me down but i never thought you will
So can i live uh huh

I don't care how
They gon treat me right yes Lord
Through the storm and rainy weather
All i hope is we're together
To fight this pain
I don't care how
They gon treat me right yes Lord
Through the storm and rainy weather
All i hope is we're together
To fight this pain, this pain
I can't believe i live a life like this
I can't believe i live a life like this

Its messed up uh
They say you find peace when you get some rest
Well rest in peace means you just run out of breath
Now either way you unsafe
Now save your strength for a better purpose to fight
Just cuz i'm left footed doesn't mean that every move ain't right
I know i might've done something so bad God forgive me
Most of ya'll pray at night but still think he ain't listening
I clinch Every moment like a fist up in the air
Some people we see daily ain't really over there
Living that life that so called i got it all going
On tryna show off in the streets means falling
Brainstorming bout how to get myself out of this misery
Hustlenomics to selling comics
Graphittee hands polished the work
And the fans loved it digging the dirt
To find a way out like convicts man i plan to escape
My peers giving me pressure so dear i'll see you later
When you living in pain you always hope for the better
Now please guide me if my lost
Cuz i'm married to my thoughts
Do protect my loved ones for that at all costs
I'm from the city
And never really chilled in the village
Getting meals isn't hard but my pops told me the story
Some of my people buried losing focus from my studies
Having fun doesn't mean i'm not worried
Cuz i'm maintaining low key
I got a story to tell
Like the man thrown in exile surviving as well
So can i live
With pain all over my chest
Or try to prove to the world i'm not one of the rest
I'm the best out of Three guys its me myself and i
Damage an emcee against all odds
Hustling to get free man i'm against all costs
Spreading the reality that's why they can't come close
Thank God that your black ass rose up today
Cuz if it wasn't for the morning
It wouldn't be day
Now the sun shining bright enough i'm making my hay
I'll be back like the day after yesterday
I just coughed without putting my hand on it
Pardon me i'm just spreading word on it
Honestly you fourteen girl whatchu want from it
Say she wanna swallow stuff that she won't vomit
Seen things that you can't imagine truth be told
If my record sale to millions then proof be sold
Word, i cant promise you change its like a lot of noise
Hearing the sound of your voice like do i have a choice
I believe imma make it way sooner
Just forget about your past to remember my future

I don't care how
They gon treat me right yes Lord
Through the storm and rainy weather
And i hope is we're together
To fight this pain
I don't care how
They gon treat me right yes Lord
Through the storm and rainy weather
All i hope is we're together
To fight this pain, this pain
I can't believe i live a life like this
I can't believe i live a life like this
I don't care how
They gon treat me right yes Lord
Through the storm and rainy weather
And i hope is we're together
To fight this pain
I don't care how
They gon treat me right yes Lord
Through the storm and rainy weather
All i hope is we're together
To fight this pain, this pain