It's Called Autism (feat. Jameson Gerdon)

Why can't you understand me
Why can't I understand you
What can I do to get through to you

Look at my new born child
Healthy as can be
Just kidding
He's got a diagnosis nobody can see

It's called Autism
The spectrum that wrecked him
A prison within
I feel like I lost him

His mind is a puzzle
But I'm the one in pieces
Doctors say there's no cure
So I pray to Jesus

I'd never chose this kind of news
If birth is a gamble
Did I just lose

It's always a surprise when a dream dies
And you realize it's time to reprioritize
And your happily ever looks miserable forever
And there's no hope your kid will ever get better

I feel guilty for feeling sad
Your is kid is special
Aren't you glad
A kid like Kodi Lee can't be that bad

He looks normal
Used to speak 100 words, but lost them
Didn't vaccinate and he still got Autism

Why can't you understand me
Why can't I understand you
What can I do to get through to you
Why can't you understand me
Why can't I understand you
Oh can you see what I'm going through

Sometimes I wonder
What did I do wrong
You acting normal didn't last that long

Now you destroy your room
And smear poop on the wall
I remember when you first learned how to crawl

You used to smile and respond to my voice
Now you don't know where to look because of all the noise

Sometimes I can't stand seeing him
He reminds me of the prayers God isn't answering

I'm trying to be a good father
Why bother
If I left, you'd find another
What should I do when you scream for hours
I wanted to be super dad but I lost my powers

Sometimes I say life would be better without you
A coping mechanism for my broken heart coming through

Before you judge and invalidate my feelings
Would you love me
And help this bleeding heart find healing

Why can't you understand me
Why can't I understand you
What can I do to get through to you
Why can't you understand me
Why can't I understand you
Oh can you see what I'm going through

What's going to happen after I die
Tell me how to switch places
I promise I'll try

Nothing's for sure
Still hoping for a cure
Even when people judge me
For thinking you're not pure

Gluten Free
Dairy Free
Is anything but free
Supplements and protocols are costly
They say divorce comes eventually
When ASD puts stress between your mom and me

ABA therapy and evaluations are expensive
$60,000 dollars a year just to live
This is insane
How can I get in that brain
I'm sorry if my panic is causing you pain

Maybe you're the strong and silent type
But you're not that strong
You're a kid
This is wrong

If you're happy and you know it
Say something
Even I hate you
Is better than nothing

I know you're not the only one
This is an epidemic taking all our sons
This feels like silence before the slaughter
Lord, please don't let this happen to my daughter



Credits
Writer(s): Pradeepan Jeeva
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