Lay and Waste

You wouldn't burn me alive
You'd wait until I'm dead
Torn up from all the time
I'm put to work underfed
I won't heed anymore
I still have half of my head
I'll leave an unlocked door
But I won't beg for a friend

I will miss this in a way, but
I have to turn away, or
I could forever stay awake, forever wait the same on my side
I could forever stay enchained, forever lay constrained on standby

You see her? Think twice before you have your fate
You see her? The pay is not worth the pain
You see her? Think twice before you think of her everyday
You're not different to her, you're just like me

I will miss this in a way, but
I have to turn away, or

Oh listen up if you care enough to open up this brig
I cannot hold this in, it needs to surface
Oh even now I don't know if you're worth wishing for
Oh even now I'd like if you would knock on my door
Oh listen up if you care enough to put away the shit
In the end no one will win if this stays the way it is
Oh even now I don't know if are you're worth wishing for
Oh even now I sometimes wish for more

I will miss this in a way but
I have to break away
I have to break away
I have to break away or
I could forever stay awake, forever lay and waste away
I'm always here; you know where I'll be
I stopped waiting for you, cause you, you weren't coming