I Lived

Word on my life now, I speak word on my life now

I did it fo my life, I did it fo da kid's
N all the bullshit that I've done, I did so I could live
Surviving, unda conditions demons died in
Like da homie Face said on deze streets, I put my time in
Grindin, husslin, shinin
Fallin off n forced to come back up, so I was climbin
I been, so broke it ain't no joke
I dun sold dope n sold soap, duckin dodgin da popo
Even smoked dro just to keep hope n to maintain
Fallin on my knee's beggin God, help me to brang change
N to gain aim, but da main thang
I ain't have a pot to piss in or window to throw it out of
Dat's when da shame came, and the game came in handy
Just to feed my kid's n to take care of my family
Man it made it made me, behave so shady
Committed crimes just to get dimes, my granny said
Girl dat boy dun gone crazy

I Lived
Through My Heart Aches N Pain
I Lived
Through My Struggles N Shame
I Lived
Through My Heart Aches N Pain
I Lived
Through My Struggles N Shame, Oh

I can't forget all da homeless nights n livinin in crack Houses
Sleepin wit my hands in my pockets, rocks in my mouth
N' shit, I slept a light as a new born kid
Niggaz went fuh my stash n man they ain't find shit
But still, I been tore off n broke off by family members, friends n strangers
Afta everythang in dis game I feel no pain just anger
N my anger increase as da pain decrease
Some of em got beat down, some of em got put to sleep
Some of em I forgave n let go free
See it's reasons fuh everythang nigga, y'all know me
N all the homies that passed on, that we lost
E-Zay, Reno, Dino, Lucky, Girard, this one fuh y'all
N fuh all my niggaz dat live n still hussle
Still struggle to make it up outta da game, still a buck u
I still love u, still a die fuh u, still won't u to believe in
Me, I still got u, still down to ride fuh u

I Lived
Through My Heart Aches N Pain
I Lived
Through My Struggles N Shame
I Lived
Through My Heart Aches N Pain
I Lived
Through My Struggles N Shame, Oh

I'm Not Ashamed No, Cuz I'm Po
U Don't Know The Kinds Of Thangs I Had To Do To Survive
It Was So, Cold
Grindin Everyday Just To Make Anotha Dime
Cuz I Was So Broke
Ashamed Of It All I Was Losin My Mind
Even Sold Dope
Struggled Everyday On The Hussle Gettin Mine
Y'all Don't Know
I Even Went To Jail, Had To Do A Little Time
That's A No, No
When I Did My Time, I Found Out I Was Blind
It Was All Told
To Me By A Man Who Ain't Neva Comin Home
N It's All So
It's All Just So Painful, Yeah

I learn to love all but trust none
Neva let a snake get too close
Fuck around have a slug In yo back n u'll be undone
And become one who's a memory
I can' see myself in a casket, my family left in misery
It's killin me slowly just sittin thinkin about dyin
A man said he fears not death, he need to stop lyin
Cuz when dem killaz come n u see da grimm reaper
U'll be shittin ya draws n then it gets deeper
Ya heart beats faster, ya mind seems shattered
N da pain goes away n ya caught up in da rapture
Seein dem lights at dem pearly gates
U wanted to live but ya enemies couldn't let it wait
"Are u afraid my child", so says the Lord
"The time has come" fuh u to be judged
N I know u hataz think my end is near
If it was my time I'd be dead but see
God Let Me Live

I Lived
Thru My Heart Aches N Pain, I Lived Thru My
I Lived
Thru My Struggles N Shame, My Struggles N Shame
I Lived
Thru My Heart Aches N Pain, I Lived Thru My
I Lived
Thru My Struggles N Shame, Oh, My Struggles

I Lived
Thru My Heart Aches N Pain, I Lived Thru My
I Lived
Thru My Struggles N Shame
Struggles
I Lived
Thru My Heart Aches N Pain
Oh-Ooh-Oh
I Lived
Thru My Struggles N Shame
Oh-Ooh-Ohh-Ohh-Ooh

Ohh, I Lived
Thru My Heart Aches N Pain
I Lived
Thru My Struggles N Shame