Worth It

You wake up in the morning and you feel a little out of it
Cold water to the face when you roll outta bed
Not feelin' yourself, every day you can't counter it
Mad at the world for all kinda shit you trynna quit
Cryin' erry night, pray the lord take you out of it
Hate everyone around you, parties you ain't fond of it
Toxic ass people drugs on a rising tip in a bad house, bad neighborhood bad environment
Locked in your bedroom, thinking you ain't gotta friend
No one to listen, you think no one gives a shit
You reach for the blade underneath your pillow case
Introduce it to your wrist, then you do figure eights
Tears drop and sink in mixed with the blood, inside you're dying on the out its just a cut
95 degrees and you wearing long tees swear its just fashion but want nobody to see
You battlin' demons but you're wounded and beaten
Yellin' out for help, hopin' someone intervene it, but you feel inconvenient
You wanna leave this world and you swear that you mean it
Pushed to the edge all you need is a reason
Death is a drug and you think that you need it
The blade mocks you, the metal is teasin, the pain from the skin rip you rush for that feeing lost hope suicide is what you're dreaming
Kicking and screamin' *thump thump* heart beatin
Woke in cold sweats can't control you're breathin
Scared for your life, the blood is still leakin
You pray for better days as your body starts to weaken
Your eyes rolls closed you get numb you don't feel it
Received the kiss of death and now you're here in spirit
And if you didn't want that, now you can't return it now stop, an ask yourself. is it worth it
When life has you down, back against the wall
Friends and family but no one you can call
Alone in this world and you wanna end it all
permanent decisions for temporary thoughts
Ask yourself now, Is it worth it
Blade to your wrist and you wanna risk it all
Empty pill bottles by your side waitin' til you fall
Alone in this world can't take it anymore permanent decisions for temporary thoughts
Ask yourself now, is it worth it?
You wake up in the morning and you feel a little out of it
Cold water to the face when you roll out of bed
you don't feel yourself, every day you can't counter it
Mad at the world for all kinda shit you trynna quit
Cryin' erry night, pray the lord take you out of it
Hate everyone around you, parties you ain't fond of it
Toxic ass people drugs on a rising tip in a bad house, bad neighborhood, bad environment

Trapped in your own thoughts
Can't spiral out of it
Introverted and adverting every conscious person
Medicine cabinet searching for temporary diversions to remove all your burdens when life has you worthless
Swishing liquor down til you're flushed out uh
Can't release the emotions cause your so caught up with the endorphins you become mute and content, but only for the moment
When you come down, rinse and repeat in the morning
It's become tradition, a way of life a vice to help you escape the night when everybody is trippin
Swear up and down that you really don't need help with your words slurred vision blurred eyes in your skull no concern about your health or how anybody felt
You acting like a zombie, walking and you're breathing but you're dead on the inside with your heart beatin
Resuscitation needed, but they can't bring you back
Who knew one more pill would cause you to collapse, seize on the ground foam at the mouth about to pass
You fell victim to depression you couldn't beat it
Choking and choking as your body starts to weaken
Your eyes rolls closed you get numb you don't feel it
Received the kiss of death and now you're here in spirit
And if you didn't want that, now you can't return it now stop, an ask yourself. is it worth it
Wake up in the morning I feel a little out of it
Cold water to the face when I roll out of bed
Don't feel myself, every day I can't counter it
Mad at the world for all kinda shit I tried to quit
Cryin' erry night, pray the lord took me out of it
Hate everyone around me, parties I ain't fond of it
Toxic ass people drugs on a rising tip in a bad mood, and a bad vibe, bad environment

STUCK in a dark space tryin' to pull out of it at the end of the rope so there's no climbing out of this
Lost in a dark void when everybody else turned they're back on me when I was crying out for help
When I tried suicide almost wish I never failed
I been down that road and I know all and well whats its like to be stuck in a personal Hell you just gotta stay strong and try to prevail
How my pops gonna explain to my little brothers I will no longer be around to hug 'em and tell 'em I love 'em
Or I'm buried in the dirt, not seen or heard
Cause I chose the easy way out now my familys hurt
How's my mom gonna see her baby carried in a hearse? Big bro the pallbearer and he was born first
Vinny and Goodi attending the funeral staring at the casket at a loss for words
Before all that took place I thought nobody would care if I departed from this Earth and resided in the dirt
I know its hard and I know what it's like But you got a friend in me and we'll get through this together I promise in due time everything will get better
Just take a deep breath and build that courage look in the mirror and see you're perfect
Now stop, and tell yourself. it ain't worth it