Bath

I woke up to the sound of soap
I left the sink running yesterday
The scent of spring weaving false hope
Of keeping time at bay

Then I headed to the big room with the books
To find the one I lost yesterday
I was all alone, the librarian was giving me a look
But I found it under a chair and went on my way

I had eight minutes to spare
I should eat because I forgot last night
I walked outside and there was water everywhere
People swimming in the light

Upstream in the crowd
I picked the wrong shoes to wear
Slipped on the ice and I fell down
Could hear my mother saying, "Life's not fair."

Life's not fair
I need to take a bath
I need to take

I opened the door to the room
My shirt dripped down on the table
I could smell that rich girl's perfume
She makes me want to swallow a staple

I punched a hole in the wall
Three months ago
Today I punched a yoga ball
That's progress if I say so

I met my friend for coffee
She showed up twelve minutes late
We didn't feel like talking
We sat in the silence we made

Then I asked, "How was your morning?"
She turned to ask about mine
I tried to lie and say it was boring
But I collapsed on the table and I cried

Yes I cried
I need to take a bath
I need to take a bath
I need to take a bath
I need to take

Went back out in the water
Different shoes on my feet
I thought about my father
And how I'll see him in a week

I was doing chores for my older brother
He likes to walk all over me
Like I'm a carpet or a mattress cover
Is it sad, sometimes I agree

And am I a bitch if he deserved it?
It's not like murder, murder is a crime
Downward slope, now I've rehearsed this
At least I didn't fall this time

I never mean to control my lover
Or anyone else that I trust
It's our own flaws that we discover
In the people staring back at us