Starting Over

So many days have passed since I wanted this
Obviously too many have been thrown away in the abyss
Wasted never to come back again, unlike myself
Returning like Rocky after every ring of the bell
Well, now I'm back again this time it's for good
Hold me accountable if you see me in the neighborhood
But I'm sure that you won't have to
After hearing this and the rest of my album
Now um, what was I saying again? I lost my train of thought
Lost my memory since I've been smoking a lot
Now I haven't been doing it lately cuz maybe
This whole rap thing just might come along, uh
Fuck a maybe man, this shit is for certain
Cuz now I'm doing nothing but putting fucking work in
Working on my health, working on my wealth
Stopped worrying bout others now I focus on myself
Cuz nobody else gon' get me like I got me
My ego taking over now ain't shit that can stop me
Not even my own brain that loves to cause me pain
That shit was batshit crazy nearly drove myself insane
But hey, I'm still here, I'm still fighting for my life
Fighting scary battles every lonely fucking night, right?
What you know bout that? Yeah you don't know shit
So don't say shit bout me or the way I get

I'm starting over
I'm starting over
Now you can't tell me things, that shit don't get to me
I need to find myself, I needed time for me, you've gotten in my way
But now I'm ripening, I'm moving faster now, you can't keep up with me, nah

Putting music second, fuck was I thinking
Drinking tequila we the dreamers of today, Beibers of tomorrow
That means we'll make it cuz our time is borrowed
Everybody else trying with a reason that's hollow
Send em to the ER cuz we are the lions the kings of the jungle no we are not humble
Cuz every time we are niggas wanna take advantage
But they fucked up now, yeah they've woken up our savage
Average flows half the time, average goals half my life
Now I know my fucking worth so y'all better step aside
And this bitch be telling lies and gets mad where truth resides
I'm like "bitch, what you mean? You better make up your mind"
Cuz I made up mine, I once was yours but now I'm on my grind
The truth can hurt but can open eyes it opened ours
So don't even try with that fake shit now
We adjacent to basic people running they day shift
But we adjacent to basic people that became famous
Right now your boy could be considered nameless
I have no doubt though that locally I'll be the favorite
Ain't it funny how it goes? Little loser fought through school
And now he's stacking up his O's?
"Oh yes, oh yes, so fucking typical and I bet that all his raps are lyrical
And he thinks that he's some sort of motherfucking miracle"
I don't think bitch I know, if you sink then I float, if you shrink then I grow
If you leave then I'm home
Back when happiness was more than just a phase
Or a short session every time that we would blaze
Now before the chorus hits I got something to say
I know I took forever and the price I will be paying
I apologize for the long ass wait
But depression is the bitch that made me fucking late, but now

I'm starting over
I'm starting over
Now you can't tell me things, that shit don't get to me
I need to find myself, I needed time for me, you've gotten in my way
But now I'm ripening, I'm moving faster now, you can't keep up with me, nah