blood on my hands

Never thought I'd have a night like this
Blood on my hands, let me wash it down the sink
Go down stairs and imma down another drink
'Cause the more I start to smoke, well the less I tend to think

Told you I was fine, guess I lied
Just didn't want to tell you how I felt inside
But the day still keeps me up at night
And the guilt still finds its way into my life

Honestly it's fine, I'm alright
You act like it's a joke but there's no punchline
You couldn't even walk a mile in my shoes
This isn't shit to what some of my friends went through

'Cause now I'm tired of being fucked with
Done with all your bullshit
But you'll still do the most for someone you think you can fuck
This isn't really friendship
Never went the distance
'Cause what you think is kindness is really sycophantic
Go find some comfort in your bias
You're so fucking spineless
You and him deserve each other I'm not even lying
All those hollow sorries were never enough
Three years, I'm still waiting for you to grow up

It took me a year to feel comfortable with myself
Then I was back in the room with someone else
And I can say that those nights have taught me how
To find strength in the dark side of myself

Told you I was fine, guess I lied
Just didn't want to tell you how I felt inside
But the day still keeps me up at night
And the guilt still finds its way into my life

Honestly it's fine, I'm alright
You act like it's a joke but there's no punchline
You couldn't even walk a mile in my shoes
This isn't shit to what some of my friends went through



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Writer(s): Yung Ivy
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