Memories

Yeah
Lately all I feel is pain
Feels like every thing has changed
I wake up it ain't the same
Plus I barely get to sleep because there's too much on my brain
Everybody claim they know me
But they only know my name
It sucks that my decision
Was happiness or dreams
Had to compromise my vision
That's the way you made it seem
I know it may have ended
But I won't take all the blame
I know have some issues and I push people away
All I wanted was real
All you did was keep it fake
Said I gave you the umbrella now I'm stuck here in the rain
But the rain it never stops
That's why I went and made a wave
These girls have tired to take you spot
I moved them out the way
I only wanted you
But you said you needed space
So I gave it
And now I'm jaded
And then my feelings
They started fading

And when will I wake up
This was only a breakup
So why do I feel stuck
Maybe I'm in love
With all our memories
All our memories
Maybe I'm in love
Maybe I'm in love
With all our memories

Content but not complacent
My last she won't replace me
I know I got some baggage
I tried to let her carry it
Trust is just to scary
When all I've had is me
There's no way
I could prepare for this
Break then I repair again
Pray but never hear a thing
Say that you'll be there
When everything is falling down
And I just spiral to the ground
And I can't see what's going on around me
Anxiety just blurs it out
A side of me that holds it in
A side that wants to blurt it out
There's always been a war inside me
I been tryna fight it out
I don't need no one besides me
That's the lie I tell myself
I blame my parents lack of love
That's the reason I'm in Hell
I got too much pride to say it
But I know that I need help
But I don't what else to do
Told you I had things to prove
I'm sick of all this patience
I hate being in this waiting room
I hate my life just being real
I wish that it was me and you
I wish that you had told the truth
But you didn't
Now we're through

And when will I wake up
This was only a breakup
So why do I feel stuck
Maybe I'm in love
With all our memories
All our memories
Maybe I'm in love
Maybe I'm in love
With all our memories

I wonder what would happen
Take the clock and move it backwards
Do it different from the start
Be someone who doesn't lack words
A person who was vulnerable
And not afraid to give they heart
So sorry I'm uncomfortable and only open up through art
I thought I made it clear it you
Of things that I was scared to do
Afraid of people feeling different
Once I let them see my shoes
Just so I ain't close to you
I create a distance
Afraid to trust my intuition
Tell myself to see it through
But that's hard
When you the one you love
Just lied to you
Why'd you take advantage when
I finally started trusting you
Started giving all of me
Opened up my eyes to see
That love it isn't comforting
Why is it so hard for me
I swear you got a part of me
Swear to God I'm trying, but maybe I don't understand
What it takes to be a man
I hide behind my art and stab myself with this pen
You can't judge how I feel, if it's bottled in

And when will I wake up from this
It's impossible to live
I just wanna break free
From all our memories
All our memories
From all our memories
From all our memories