Miserable in Secret

Just gotta say how I'm really feeling

I don't wanna feel no ways
That's just how I get some days
I know I gotta make things right
In my mind, in my life, fore I die yeah
Wanna feel happiness
I'm getting tired of being sad and shit
Cause no one ever sees it
And I'm miserable in secret, yeah

Wanna feel like we're wanted
From the friends and the fam that we got, shit
And that might be all in my head
But I steady been so disconnected from everything
Who am I to trust or confide in?
When everybody got a mask they hide in
I don't know who I should keep at my side
When the ones that I love always leave me behind and
We all need a hand for the long haul
Real ones who give a damn bout our thought process
Lately I feel like everybody knockoffs
That switch sides anytime when you got none
Left to give them, they leave you missing
The time you spent and then you get to thinking
It never mattered in the first place
Get sad and the tears start to rain

But you just gotta wipe your face
That's just how it gets some days
You and I gotta make things right
In our minds and our lives fore we die, yeah
We all wanna get a bit of happiness
And everybody gets sad bout shit
But no one ever sees it
Cause we're all miserable in secret, yeah

Small people in a big world
It's never peaceful, everybody gets hurt
At one point or another
And that's why I always roll up in the summer
Sitting in the sun tryna
Forget my problems, sometimes I could never solve them
I couldn't stay at the bottom, said fuck that shit now I'm solid
Got knowledge, I'm never thoughtless
I used to wander in solemn polluting my body with toxins
Nothing inside the wallet
Jobless without an option
And now I can't take a loss and I'm taking they spots I'm robbing
I got it, don't ever test me
Popping off like a weapon
I'm watching out for deception
I knew as an adolescent
Too many people snakes, I hate it I can't relate
I ain't angry just gotta say
Quite frankly you fuckers fake
I'm making music they crave
Splashing I'm making waves
I'm lapping them on the track
Might happen to win the race, yeah yeah
They ask why I be so cynical
Dark past and a brain full of chemicals
Smoke gas in the whip that's typical
It's not Pokemon but them hits been critical
I need a life more live-able
With more money and my work life minimal
Gone through a lot, yeah the past been difficult
I hope that this don't last
Because I'm miserable in secret
If I told you would you keep it
Cause I don't think that I can deal with
Anymore holding in these feelings
I can't fall off staying far from the deep end
Always got my guard up, good defense
Gotta stay true to the ones who could see when
See me when
I was miserable in secret

Miserable in secret, if I told you would you keep it?
Yeah