Nutcracker

I'm frozen
the only thing that moves
is my beating heart
wishing to jump out of his cell
I can't talk right now, understand

The bed is drowning me in
for being guilty about everything
pictures are running over my head
why am I feeling so sad?

Maybe the tears on my soaked pillow
are chilling my head
straightening my back
proving that a blank page can be black
I'll write in white the solution
Which will light my darkened thoughts

I Don't know how to lie to
make it easier for you
I tried and you can see that I'm too concentrated
On the only thing I feel,
All those irritating knocks on my back

I've seen it all before
He was used to shut emotional doors
I remember all of the times that the room got bigger
and all of the pills that I didn't take
as a child I didn't know
why am I swimming into the whirlpool
In time I've learned that's my way out

Maybe the tears on my soaked pillow
are chilling my head
straightening my back
proving that a blank page can be black
I'll write in white the solution
Which will light my darkened thoughts

In that moment I thought
that if you don't understand
you should walk away
but when you left it tore me apart
You left me alone with my beating heart

Maybe the tears on my soaked pillow
are chilling my head
straightening my back
proving that a blank page can be black
I'll write in white the solution
The solution.

I'm frozen, but it gets warmer now
You came back and made me laugh again
And reminded me
It's only human