Carseat

I don't remember much about my car seat
I've lost that security
'Cause every time I gain a tiny bit of maturity
It comes at the cost of something being ripped right outta me
I want it back now
But I don't know how
Even if I could
Would it be tainted
By these lenses
That leave me
Four-and-a-half senses
Or maybe more
'Cause I can see the million shades of gray
That I couldn't before
Macabre decor
On a concrete floor

'Cause I'm too heavy now (Heavy)
I'm too heavy now (Heavy)
You can't pick me up anymore
So just let me down

The earliest I remember is when I was five
Took a nap, when I woke
I was all alone
So, logically I figured
Everyone had left
And was never coming home
Now I look back and I laugh
And I buckle myself
And I eat alone
That car seat's just a shell of an old home
And memories I no longer own

'Cause I'm too heavy now (Heavy)
I'm too heavy now (Heavy)
You can't pick me up anymore
So just let me down

The car's been crashed
And I've survived
My body thrashed
And the belt a line
A mild bump
And nothing more
Than something I've
been through before

'Cause I'm too heavy now (Heavy)
I'm too heavy now (Heavy)
You can't pick me up anymore
So just let me down