The List

Oh, I have a hobby of picking myself apart
Leaving people I love waiting in the dark
And sometimes when I want to cry, I laugh
It's kind of funny

Oh, and this October I went falling off the edge
All of London must have heard the things I said
Put your hand up if I let you down again, mm

There's a list of things that I should stop
List of things that I should stop
List of things that I should not be doing
But I do 'em
It's a pattern that I got

I need to stop my excuses
And have a real conversation
Need to look in the mirror
Stop finding things that need changing
Need to stop getting drunk
To avoid this situation
I need to stop letting myself down
I'll try something that I've not before
And like myself a little more now

Oh, I have got an attic full of damage in my mind
I box it up, say I'll deal with it another night
And I have a problem looking people in the eye
Isn't that funny?

There's a list of things that I should stop
List of things that I should stop
List of things that I should not be doing
But I do 'em
It's a pattern that I got

I need to stop my excuses
And have a real conversation
Need to look in the mirror
Stop finding things that need changing
Need to stop getting drunk
To avoid this situation
I need to stop letting myself down

I should shut up and listen
Not try to fill every silence
I should stumble in love
Instead of running and hiding
I should stop getting drunk
And showing up uninvited
I need to stop letting myself down
I'll try something that I've not before

Oh, I'm a master at dancing around the point
I know I call you, but I hate the sound of my own voice
So can you talk? You know I'm stacking up
Until the night I'm not enough
And you're just someone else I disappoint

I need to stop my excuses
And put my feelings in order
Need to look in the mirror
And stand a little bit taller
Need to stop getting drunk
As a reason to call ya
I need to stop letting myself down

Oh, I should shut up and listen
Not try to fill every silence
I should stumble in love
Instead of running and hiding
I should stop getting drunk
And showing up uninvited
I need to stop letting myself down

I'll try something that I've not before
And like myself a little more now