What Will I Do

Most times it would feel like we had some times but
Most times you were only showing your good side and
Those times you would look and you had me hooked right away
I won't lie kinda shook of living my life without yah
And it's been this way
Back when we were serving like a tennis play
Hit a lick just to get enough to go on dinner dates
Never did i see this coming but did i penetrate
Sure did, masked up shoot we almost got away
And to this day i don't know what i was thinking on God
Had a hunger for the jungle that often lead to me lost
Had a rumble in my tummy i couldn't just let me starve
But i knew that letting go would be hard
Damn

(Uh, what will i do)
(Now that you're gone)
(Uh, what will i do)

Uh, yea, look
I'd be lying if i said that i ain't feel like crying
Bout 98 and 99 when we got close as ever
I was molested as kid and it was kind of enticing because when you don't know no better you don't know no better
Before my teens man i was thinking of things like
Damn i wonder what she got inside them jeans like uh
It started as no fault of my own
But now that I'm grown it's a fault that i own
Grew attachment from my detachment wow, yea
Sadly that's how it happens now, yea
Now I'm supposed to just be happy now, yea
Like PTSD ain't real like i don't feel what feel
To this day i don't know what you were thinking on God
Some trouble in your struggle that often lead to me scarred
Rumble in my tummy was hungry to get this off
But i knew that letting go would be hard
Damn

(Uh, what will i do)
(Now that you're gone)
(Uh, what will i do)

What will i do if i do decide to put you aside and
Leave all the lying behind me start giving truth a try and
Feeling like a David with a sling shot conquer the giant
Goliath ain't built this tough he don't know what the time is
I kick pride to the curb man if my words
That's plenty
I'm penning my nerve don't care what you heard and really
Was silly to think that i could learn in the blink of an eye
When i peaked at pride i seen what i needed was God