Christmas Eve

Hey there
I'm roaming the neighborhood
Convincing us both I'm good
Don't believe me

'Cause most days
I'm checking the internet
And typing your name again
Could it bring you back?

So I drink till I drown
I'm a ghost in this town
A heathen to wholesale holidays

And I shiver and shake
In the wake of mistakes
Does it feel like this?
To be left, irrelevant

And December feels so much colder this time

If I drive straight down the 5
With my flask on the passenger side
When you fall on my mind I'll swerve into the divide
Would you think of it?
Would you care one bit

Do you hear the sounds of last year tonight?
As I walk through the cold, I'm counting every light
Am I there, in your thoughts?
Or is it you that I lost?
In all these neighborhoods window, I see you
Everywhere that I'm not

So what's the use in me screaming I love you more
We know things won't be things like things were before
And if there's some kind of fix that could absolve me of this
Then I'm listening