As It Stands

As it stands I am turning the wheel
As it stands there's nothing left here for you to steal
As it stands I haven't seen you for weeks
As it stands you're doubling through these sewer stained streets
As it stands I shoot it down, you know you don't mean a thing
As it stands I step slow motion from the flaming machine
As it stands you know that I don't want it to die, but
As it stands I know I'll never leave this alive

It's got nothing to do with you
Just the fear of forgetting
The bodies and nights that I've been used
And I used you too
Like a cheap perfume

As it stands the only teacher is time, but
As it stands this lesson will be my whole life
As it stands I know that it is all in my head
As I stand a rising escalator to a cliff edge, and
I know I'm being obvious, a whale on the beach, but
As it stands we both know who is wearing the leash
As it stands I'm walking with my head in my hands, just
Waiting for the moment when you stab me right back

It's got nothing to do with you
Just the fear of forgetting
The bodies and nights that I've been used
And I used you too
Like a cheap perfume
Like a blow-up doll in a backstreet brawl
Like strangers sharing a bathroom stall
Gives me panic stabs from a casual glance
Gives me swollen glands from uncertain chance
And I'm seeing stars in a boxer's hand
A one-night stand with a pension plan