Sleeping With the Lights On

I've been sleeping with the lights on lately
'Cause my window shades are stuck
And I know if I don't
I might never find the strength to wake up

Down the street there's a nice old lady
Who walks her dog twice daily
Makes me feel like I don't belong
In this committee controlled place, fined if your grass is too long

And all my friends are fighting
Who would have guessed it?
Another night spent writing
Oh just forget it, oh just forget it

I ain't really been myself lately
For the past, like, 20 years
I'm just confirming all my doubts and all my fears

I write a lot about the past
And the time I can't get back
And how much I want to change it
But I can't

And I'm not any closer
Who would have guessed it?
Just tryna make the most of
What I've got left
I'll unravel this mess yet

Neighbor called the cops again
I think I'm losing oxygen
I'll suffocate if I stay in this place

And maybe there's a reason why
I'm so different from the others my
Identity slowly being erased

I ain't really been myself lately
For the past, like, 20 years
I'm just confirming all my doubts and all my fears

I write a lot about the past
And the time I can't get back
And how much I want to change it