To Love and Loathe

I'd buy a suit, a fancy coat
And bonnets for your hair to make you feel alive when you don't
I know you said long ago
The lines you cross will cost you son, it's done, more than you'll ever know

But I love you and then I loathe you
You let me bend and break to suffocate
And if I want to, let me haunt you
I'm in your dreams for now... bet you don't know how

I go to eat and every street
Reminds me of the walks and talks and flowered sandals on your feet
And happy times have gone behind
The screen that flickers on until it's gone, while you're moving on

But I love you and then I loathe you
You let me bend and break just to suffocate
And if I want to, let me haunt you
In your dreams for now, 'til you don't know how I got out

(Don't leave me, don't leave me and don't lead me on)

And all the time I thought that it was hard
And then you rot within his arms
That's what I fought for so long

And if I love you why do I loathe you?
I've learned they're both the same when I hear your name
And if I miss you or just resist you
You're in my dreams for now, 'til I don't know how you got out