Lay Me to Rest

How many words to say that I miss it?
The energy I had that only came from her spark
I'm giving up the mantle cause of problems I can't handle
Everything is going south and in the north it's all stark
I'm staying up in the dark
I call my friends, say let's drive
Turn the car off and park, I try to take their advice
Never take it to heart that I'm not on her mind
I split the night into parts and try to sleep 'fore it's light
But that's
Far more easy said
Cause doing it means turning off the cameras in my head
They love to play the highlight reel
With all special effects
And the rose-tinted specs
Reminiscing on the times when I'd
Believe in what was next
I'm reading over texts
Just tryna feel the love again
Ignoring simple facts
That that's just something I can't get
Ignoring every warning
And the things I know are best
But lessons only sink in
When they're weighted with regrets
I'm doing all the wrong things so
Please clap your hands
A round of applause
For the idiot at hand
I am a truly selfless man
I swear this was the plan
I'm making all of my mistakes
So you don't have to
Walk in my shoes
Just be careful, watch your step
And make sure not to follow me
When things go left yeah
Charge it to the game
I know anyone can get it
Statistics never matter
Till its you and you regret being the one

Lay me to rest in pieces
Close your eyes so you don't have to see this
And I thought I was above these feelings
You brought me to earth and I loved it
But without you here I'm lovesick

How many days of dying is this?
The days are getting blurry and the numbers are mixed
I picked up exactly where I left things before
But there's a bitterness I never used to taste in alcohol
We go one drink, two drink, three drink, four
Drink till I can't feel feelings no more
No more no more
Just pour, don't think
Clichés make me feel more sick than the drink
I've been told a couple times that my eyes don't look the same
The only time I see them is in bathroom mirrors waved
I know why I'm afraid
I'm scared of what I'll see again
The fears that you expect
Are the hardest ones to feel again
Déjà vu
C'est comme j'ai connu
I miss how much she loved it
When I'd speak to her in French
I can't express how I resent
Missing things I'll never feel again
I'm fluent in a love language
That I'll never need again
And everyone that matters
Says I'll never be naïve again
But all I hear is that I'll never be the same
These are the thoughts that I'm drowning every day
But they hit me even harder with the crash of every wave
Sober as I write this, when you hear it I'll be drunk
So sing the chorus now while there's nothing in my lungs
When every word is finished and when every drop is drunk
The encore will come
Telling me that I was meant to be the one

Lay me to rest in pieces
Close your eyes so you don't have to see this
And I thought I was above these feelings
You brought me to earth and I loved it
But without you here I'm lovesick

It feels really late in the game
Added time is pending and the tactics have changed
I'm doing what I shouldn't be but I don't feel the shame
Cause I chase the old highs and they aren't hitting the same
I went blonde and to be frank
I'm losing all my self-control
But all the new girls love it
So it's staying till it grows
Keep a place for me
For when I get myself together
I promise it'll fall
In between late and never
Hearts break sideways never straight down the middle
And I'm asking for the answer cause I'm tired of the riddle
I know I'm not asking for a lot, just a little reassurance
That I live another life where I'm still the one

Where I get a proper chance to end what's begun
Where my heart doesn't sink with the rise of the sun
But I chose this
It's my fault even if I didn't know this
I gave you everything I had and you broke it
Into all these pieces

So lay me to rest in pieces
Close your eyes so you don't have to see this
And I thought I was above these feelings
You brought me to earth and I loved it
But without you here I'm lovesick
Without you here I'm lovesick