You've Haunted Me

Finally I found out
Who you are right now.
Everyday we were together.
2 birds of a feather.
I thought you would never
Leave me behind,
in your mind it was time,
but I always thought you'd do me better.
Guess I was a fool for that.
I was sheep to a shepherd.
You always led me off track.

So I gotta get back,
depend on myself.
How do I do that
without any help?
I would go ask,
But there's no one around.

I guess I have
to shove it all down.
Just sit in my room
for hours on end.
Might be my tomb.
No wounds will mend.
Fearing the solitude that comes from brokenness.
My heart was so open, but you were busy not noticing.

You've haunted me.
You once told me how scared you were.
Your fears became my reality.
Fears over years in the future.
When in actuality,
Your fears became my reality.

Damaged, damaged, I feel so damaged.
I cannot manage, or bandage. I'm famished
For some devotion, emotion is a challenge.
I know that I'm broken, being open take some talent.

Talent that I don't have. Talent that I really need.
I know that you don't, and you won't ever think of me.
That's fine, rewind, focus on the task at hand.
I want to see the world, but I am a nebraska man.

At least I am for now, it could change when I grow.
Few years down the road, don't you know
I'm too focused on the past,
But I won't let it show.
This is taking too much of my time,
I gotta let this go.

You've haunted me.
You once told me how scared you were.
Your fears became my reality.
Fears over years in the future.
When in actuality,
Your fear became my reality.