Lonely Stoner

Everyday it feel like I'm getting closer
Play the hand I'm dealt like a game of poker
Light up the L tonight I'll be a lonely stoner
Ain't heard the fat lady, so I guess it ain't over
Everyday it feel like I'm getting closer
Play the hand I'm dealt like a game of poker
Light up the L tonight I'll be a lonely stoner
Ain't heard the fat lady, so I guess it ain't over

So close but yet so far, that's just the reality
Been through some things that'a make you wanna give up on dreams
I'm talking pain so bad, you wish yo life was over
It's cuz of pain like that, that I can't stay sober
I light up the L for love, lessons, and life
And that green is all I need, despite that pill and act hype
Getting high, floating above the lows, sometimes scared to look down
It feel like sometimes ain't really nothing worth something on the ground
Seen my momma get her wings and that's pain I can't explain
One of my closest friends passed, drunk driver swerved in her lane
See I don't talk about it much and that's probably fucking me up
Try to block it out while I blow the smoke, sipping from this cup
Sometimes I take off in the whip, cruise control, open road
Middle lane take my pain, driving help me ease my load
Talk to God, ask for forgiveness, cuz He really know my soul
Behind the wheel tonight, burning down, riding out all alone

Everyday it feel like I'm getting closer
Play the hand I'm dealt like a game of poker
Light up the L tonight I'll be a lonely stoner
Ain't heard the fat lady, so I guess it ain't over
Everyday it feel like I'm getting closer
Play the hand I'm dealt like a game of poker
Light up the L tonight I'll be a lonely stoner
Ain't heard the fat lady, so I guess it ain't over

Nightmares keeping me up, I'm barely getting sleep
Can't make out the face, but it feel like somebody chasing me
I know it's just a dream, but I be tryna slow down in my sleep
Jus so I can see if I recognize who after me
And folk be quick to say you changed on em
Not knowing the path you on, is really bout to change something
Tryna pave the way and make it so we all eat
The life we had was sour, but soon it's gon be sweet
I keep my distance whenever I see ya true colors
Protect my peace, even if it comes at the cost of others
I be content hanging with my nieces, they love me to pieces
And I done searched but it's hard to find that kinda love in the streets
With everyday that pass, I know I'm getting older
Feel like the weight of the world is sitting on my shoulders
Life full of twists and turns like a rollercoaster
Time waits for no one, that clock never gon move slower

Everyday it feel like I'm getting closer
Play the hand I'm dealt like a game of poker
Light up the L tonight I'll be a lonely stoner
Ain't heard the fat lady, so I guess it ain't over