No Halo

If I'm gonna make it through this game
I gotta think outside the box
Being a loser with no name
Well I guess it's just not enough
I've just been through hell and back
At least that's how I felt in fact
No need to overreact
Cuz maybe it's not over - the act

Okay
Maybe I'm still stuck in my ways
Stuck in a maze
Write then erase never amazed
Had to break myself to get out of this place
Would you do the same?
Would you take the blame?
If you had a chance how much would you change?

When I feel left out I go into my right side
When I'm not alright I center into my mind
Tryna figure out if the way to peace
Is to take a piece of my mental
Please don't you try to piss me off

I think I lost my way I need to get a way
Maybe if I'm gone then they'll want me to stay
I don't wanna be running from something
I wanna be running towards something

Should I have a heart of stone or a heart of gold
Either way I know that I can't be both
There's this thing called pride sitting down my throat
And the more I push it down the more I feel alone

I've been M.I.A
Tryna find myself can you just let me be?
I don't need you invading my privacy
Yeah I got my daddy issues - suck my D
You've probably figured out the scheme was "a" to "e"

Get off fucking get off
My back is hurting and I'm so lost
Where's this train off to?
My mind is getting air tossed ripped my hair off
Thought I learned lesson - guess not
But I still caught what this train taught

Do they know
I'm not as I say so
Where's my guardian angel
Cuz I can't see no halo no halo

Now that you've learned my cruel face
Shall we raid into a new place
A place where you can be yourself
And I'll be two face?
I can't promise to be true all the way
You say you are but you're gone at the end of the day

Okay take a step back we've gone too deep
Sailing in my sea of thoughts no land no sleep
At least I'm safe of harm, my world my dream
Oh shit I didn't know these fuckers learned to swim

Battle with my kind I'm fighting with my mind
I'm fighting to survive this ain't no paradise and they demand a price they want a sacrifice
Well they demand I pay a tension
Not the notice part, but my mental strain and
I know it's a trap
They want me to snap
They want me to crack
Growing paranoid
I'm living life always under attacked
But fuck it bring it all you've got
Bring me all you've got
Come at me motherfuckers
I can always be-be myself like that

I think I lost my way I need to get a way
Maybe if I'm gone then they'll want me to stay
I don't wanna be running from something
I wanna be running towards something

Should I have a heart of stone or a heart of gold
Either way I know that I can't be both
There's this thing called guilt sitting in my boat
And the more I push it down the more it wants to grow
Will I make it on my own will I ever blow?
Either way I hope that I'm proud who knows
Got my arms spread wide they're waiting for my fall
And on my way down I realized it's my world

Do they know
I'm not as I say so
Where's my guardian angel
Cuz I can't see no halo no halo
I'm so lost
Gone away with no cause
Nothing but these low thoughts
Cuz I can't see no halo no halo