College Boy

On stage at MSG with Hillary and now I'm graduating
Hardest four years of my life but they were truly fascinating
Used to hit up Siam like, "Yo bro, tell me what class we taking"
Now we on vacation, party harder than a math equation
But I signed an affidavit that I'd go through tough times
Pressure just to make it had me studying till sunrise
Promised to my parents that they would see their son rise
They came into the states and paved a way with nothing but drive
So I kicked my career into full gear
Momma's crying happy tears, salutatorian in here
Wish my grandmother could see me, to my heart she was so dear
Sometimes i reminisce bout memories and think she'll reappear
I couldn't shed a tear, the stress it wouldn't let me grieve
When she died, I learned that family is all I'll ever need
Never believed I'd see my friends become my brothers
I feel blessed fam
If I could ever trust a bitch, I know who'll be my best man
Taking notes in class, pen in my right, but with my left hand
I'm juggling my artistry, I should be signed to Def Jam
See medicine is cool, but with this music, yea I know I'm nice
I know my words can heal, plus a degree that shit is overpriced
Thoughts of dropping out, like life's a gamble, roll the dice
Pursuing something I ain't passionate bout is scarier than poltergeist
Caught up in my head, I was wondering if the moment's right
Nightmares of my dreams fading, those were some of my coldest nights
Didn't have the courage to do me and just control my life
At least I had your bitch to buy me chicken over rice
I used to give her white sauce 'cause her throat was nice
Like holy Christ
But she cheated on her man, and I can't make a hoe my wife
I'm a Hunter Hawk for real, I killed her pussy, it's a carcass now
Then I wanted love from other chicks, got hit with karma now
Was sticking to my word, but my girl she flipped the script
If my grandmother was here, she'd say that I'm a hypocrite
You see, I hurt another man and 'cause I'm hurt
That thought is festering
Pre-med student got a taste of his own medicine
Light bulb went off in my head, like I was Edison
What goes around comes around, my pain is a testament
No pain, no gain, I learned to endorse pain
Seeking out discomfort, they're saying I got a warped brain
Cold showers, getting some adrenaline in those veins
Scared of the waterfall? You're gonna have a short reign
Couldn't do a pull up, now I'm pulling up, your boy trained
Couldn't get my dick yet, a virgin in his porn phase
Then I woke up, no longer dormant but I'm dorming
Eating foreign pussy, rest in peace Anthony Bourdain
Suicide doors in my future I can see them now
Tunnel vision through the storm, I could see the scenic route
Peace out to my college days, on stage I hope she falls flat
Hillary's dirty, I took her to Clinton-Wash Ave