Church Night

All I'm asking is forgiveness
Lord since you been a witness
I'm begging you, please handle your business
'Cause I've been trying so hard, it don't make a difference
As the Son of God, does that make me your apprentice?
A dog, a scum, I know I've been called the worst types
A thought, a pun, I just hope they hit my verse right
A sign would do me justice, hell even a curse might
So let's bow our heads as we gather on this church night

How could I be so dumb
I fall victim to the pain I've been suffering
When usually I note them
When my dough comes, nigga I don't pay rolls
I adapt to my surroundings and I play roles
I look for friends to open up but they stay closed
Why wait for January 1st, just to make goals?
Everything I ever wanted, man I had to work
Rap for thirst, and I ate bars like half a verse
Living life a luxury, learn the ways because of me
I'm utterly ridiculous, and sick of shit discussing me
Foul, malice, malpractice, wild tactics
Child acts get under skin and disallows balance
Don't pity me, console me, or pacify me
Being weird or different, normally would classify me
I become a different type of hard, with all of these asses by me
And they earning a assist when they pass it by me

All I'm asking is forgiveness
Lord since you been a witness
I'm begging you, please handle your business
'Cause I've been trying so hard, it don't make a difference
As the Son of God, does that make me your apprentice?
A dog, a scum, I know I've been called the worst types
A thought, a pun, I just hope they hit my verse right
A sign would do me justice, hell even a curse might
So let's bow our heads as we gather on this church night

We cuddle for a privilege
Dissing me will hurt ya chances
I've been lenient
Depending on the circumstances
A question to myself
How are we to work or manage
If you never hear me out
I know I ain't perfect dammit
Then my anger builds until the surface damage
Putting up with shit I dislike, when it hurts to stand it
Then an argument results, I deserve to panic
Thinking that I may lose you, all because I serve the planet
I'm not a superhero, but I could be ya savior
We can't correspond, with attacking behaviors
Lord have mercy, put the fights above us
One must comply and agree they've been unjust
None of us have done such, so the lungs just
Holds steam inside, brush the pain aside and tongues touch
I play defendant with this love life, but stay committed
Praying this is only the beginning when I say admit it

All I'm asking is forgiveness
Lord since you been a witness
I'm begging you, please handle your business
'Cause I've been trying so hard, it don't make a difference
As the Son of God, does that make me your apprentice?
A dog, a scum, I know I've been called the worst types
A thought, a pun, I just hope they hit my verse right
A sign would do me justice, hell even a curse might
So let's bow our heads as we gather on this church night