Alive

whispering promises around the corners of my building
The smell was welcoming me,
bringing me memories from when we were just children

And i hadn't thought of it since it happened
At the time i cried, but now i'm just laughing
Just laughing

I wonder what i'd be like now if i could forget you
I'm turning myself all inside out, wondering if i regret you
I can't decide whether to curse you out
Or kiss the ground because i made it out alive
If that's even true

I feel it growing in me,
something i have to face is getting much closer
I see a version of me telling me
curious things, but i don't really know her

And nothing's really getting much clearer
But these voices are all sounding familiar

I wonder what i'd be like now if i could forget you
I'm turning myself all inside out, wondering if i regret you
I can't decide whether to curse you out
Or kiss the ground because i made it out alive
If that's even true

I thought you taught me to despise myself
When i'm through, what if i don't recognize what i felt?

I wonder what i'd be like now if i could forget you
I'm turning myself all inside out, wondering if i regret you
I can't decide whether to curse you out
Or kiss the ground because i made it out alive
Did i make it out alive?
Did i make it out alive?
Did i make it out alive?
Did i make it out?

The breeze was calling to me,
whispering promises around the corners of my building