Introspection

Half of what I do I do it just to see
If anybody ever wants to be with me
Lord forgive my sins I've paid for my mistakes
But I'm tired of being alone and playing silly games

Like counting down the hours it takes to fall asleep
Or better yet just writing till I cannot speak
Trust me when I say I've gone and fell too deep
Sometimes it takes a while to claim your own defeat

Half of what I own I spent it over time
Time I spent perfecting all these silly lines
So I could make a couple songs for you to hear
Cause I hope you understand how much I hold you dear

Every waking moment on the cutting floor
Every hour wasted was a closing door
Trust me when I say that I've been here before
I just wanna make it big before the curtain fall

All the lonely nights I spent thinking about
Every time I thought I'd never make it out
I don't wanna go through hell
I don't wanna beg for help
I just need to find a way to make it end

Cause all I sing about is things that I regret
Mainly just to silence them inside my head
Things like what I do and money that I've spent
Forgetting what it means to really be contempt

There's music for the times that feel a certain way
And music that will never see the light of day
Some will never get to echo in the halls
But I wanna make it big before the curtain falls