Grow

Yeah
I'm feeling free
I'm feeling me
I can't complain
Thinking for myself
I'm feeling sane
There was once a day
When I always felt the need to explain
But these days don't quite feel the same
It's some things that I wanna see
And right now it's all internal
It only got to do with me
I'm turning back to my journal
I'm trying to spark my memory
It's some things I tucked away
Got me feeling like decay
If I still refuse to say
I really believed self care was selfish
I was 16 when I found out I was allergic to shell fish
Something's you learn late and that's easy to do
When it's a lot on your plate and you trying not to be rude
It's generational
Raised by the folks that you tied to
Living for others make you forget you gotta die too
Trying to downplay everything I feel inside
Had to open my eyes and realize I wanna fly too

All of my life I had to fight (Yeah)
On 68th your enemy knocked you off your bike (Yeah)
Gotta match that energy or you can't go home tonight (Yeah)
I then made it to the mic, I've been training my whole life
(Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah)
And I just wanna chill and grow here
Letting down my hair, I just wanna flow here
Gotta learn to be without the conditions
Gotta learn to breathe without the permissions

I knew the day would come when I would get fed up
It's hard to work towards something you're in great dread of
Speaking of I don't play the blame game too much
My own thoughts keep me jumping back and forth
Like it's double dutch
Had to settle up with myself
Now I'm headed up
You know you gotta go inward just to level up
Got the good and bad in my genes, tired of dressing up
But I'm only me so welcome to the making of
Yeah, I'm breaking bad
Bad habits if you ask me
Word to Corona
How y'all sick and trying to mask me
Yeah, I'm living blessed
Hardly stressed cause I'm task free
If you want the ropes better ask me
This the part where everyone gone swear I changed
I ain't work that hard just to stay the same
Had to chill and heal so I didn't project my pain
And had to take a different route so I don't end up there again

All of my life I had to fight (Yeah)
On 68th your enemy knocked you off your bike (Yeah)
Gotta match that energy or you can't go home tonight (Yeah)
I then made it to the mic, I've been training my whole life
(Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah)
And I just wanna chill and grow here
Letting down my hair, I just wanna flow here
Gotta learn to be without the conditions
Gotta learn to breathe without the permissions

J, what you talking bout?
Well let me slow it up
Talking bout the choices you making when you growing up
See, I been holding up, I just keep on showing up
Growth with my name on it & I ain't been owning up
Nah I'ma late bloomer, but I'ma straight shooter
Some things I wish I would've known sooner
But when you know better, you do better
Even if that ain't together
Some roads I've walked alone
But look at how much I have grown
I offer no apologies, no my bad's, it's all on me's
Swear it's all love, but those burdens were so tiring
Heard the man above love me in my entirety
Had me second guessing what I needed from society
I'm proud of me
I'm going for my dreams and betting it all on me
Kind of in between right now and where I'm 'bout to be
Twenty something's were wild, I'm no longer a child
The beauty of a heart & a soul reconciled

All of my life I had to fight (Yeah)
On 68th your enemy knocked you off your bike (Yeah)
Gotta match that energy or you can't go home tonight (Yeah)
I then made it to the mic, I've been training my whole life
(Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah)
And I just wanna chill and grow here
Letting down my hair, I just wanna flow here
Gotta learn to be without the conditions
Gotta learn to breathe without the permissions