Say What?

Never was thinkin' of property
I was thinkin' Monopoly
It was a game to me
Nobody's stoppin' me
It was a shame to see
The monotony
This life, toppled on top of me
Where is my happiness
There's been a robbery
Was I to blame
Did I approach it properly
I was tryin' to fake it
But later I turned to honesty
Then I relied on cadence
And look where that's gotten me
So I've had my head down, guess I missed the faze
I keep getting caught up, but it's a different case
Isn't missing a lesson a blessing when you switch delays?
I would sit and blaze
But this ain't basic it's LASIK
Now check your vertebrae
Yeah that hurt to say
I've got to learn, which battles are really worth the pain
Before I learn from it I went and done it all again
I'll put up with it as long as the loyalty remains
Ask anybody that knows me, the boys'll say
I'm the better man, in each and every way
I'm here with a purpose and that's why we separate
I'm a better mate, not a snake, with a lot at stake
Bro, your crew might think that you're the shit, but ya not as great
That shit's a fact, if you fight it that's a lost debate
Consider yourself lucky that's all it's gonna cost today
Close it up, where's the love, man I think you lost your way
Mosy on over the hopeless ogre with odour
Is swamped,
Make a note so you know the show's over,
It's totally stopped
Cold as ice, so precise, ain't that shit supposed to be hot?
Hopefully not, give it some time
When's it supposed to drop?
You need patience man... and I'm not the kind
I been rackin' my brain, lookin' for a sign
Too benign, that's probably the reason I'm so behind
I'm inclined, to not be reasonable from time to time
Had to get my shit together, so that I believe
I'd achieve anything that is set out in front of me
I vent to free, so I can see clearly what I'm meant to be
And what I'm meant to be is a part of a new identity
And you'll be lying if you say that you remember me
I'll be cuttin' limbs from rappers and dismembering
Everything, I'll shred the evidence if there's anything
I can't commit so never l-let me see a wedding ring
Settling? Watch that bee of truth land and let it sting
Beckoning, the next best king with my middle thing
My track's a bon fire, I use verses as kindling
Bet ya picturing how I even do it, I piss it in
Now I'm up and at 'em I continue festering
And meddling, any which way that I'm heading in
See my grin, 'cos you can't tell (cartel) like I'm Medellín
Take your shot if I'm slippin' or you w-won't get any in
I know all about missed opportunities
But now I'm flexin' lunacy
I've become the Lex Luthor of next moves and rapper eulogies
I just need a mic, and you'll see how cruel I'll be
You can't duplicate it 'cos they'll only pay one fool like me
Weighin' up my options seems to be done lightly
Not funny enough to be a stand-up comic on IG
So I spill verbal diarrhoea on a page and leave
I'll make a mark, but it's not the kinda mark I'd like to make
But the only mark I can make, is my life that I relay
Maybe at the market I can find a carpet that'll sway
And take apart in something dark
That makes a spark and lights the way