Brainstorm

Is it storming
Or is it just my insecurities that have been pouring
Down on me at four in the morning
I'm not tired
But I can't seem to stop my self from yawning
And my day to day has just become too boring
Is it storming
Or is it just my insecurities that have been pouring
Down on me at four in the morning
I'm not tired
But I can't seem to stop my self from yawning
And my day to day has just become too boring

Welcome to the performance
Yes we're gonna begin shortly
First and foremost I need you to understand
That none of my misfortunes are any more important than yours
I just got a list of fucking problems and I wanna go ahead and voice them
My life is like a sad song
And I'm a tell you the story
To be honest I don't think I'm going to make it to forty
To be honest I'll be surprised if I make it to sleep before morning
I'll try to paint you a portrait before I get too fucking nauseous
It's true what they say when it rains it pours
I would say that I would change
But that don't sound the same anymore
So I stay locked away
Constantly recording my thoughts
To leave this world in shock and awe
I don't get no applause
Because I'm still convinced that I'm being fucking ignored
One more goodbye I've handwritten it's hidden inside my top drawer
Lookin down on the city from the top floor
Fuck it I guess this is my last resort
My relationships they always end up falling apart
But I guess I should have seen that coming straight from the start
My hinges left with no doors
So many holes up in my walls
I'll break everything in sight
Including that bitches skull if she's not supportive
My grandmother thinks I need to go to church and be anointed
I think I should just crush up another pill and snort it
Because if not believing in a book
Is gonna result in me getting cooked
Turn up the water and make it boil
Shit I'm diving in headfirst fuck it

Is it storming
Or is it just my insecurities that have been pouring
Down on me at four in the morning
I'm not tired
But I can't seem to stop my self from yawning
And my day to day has just become too boring
Is it storming
Or is it just my insecurities that have been pouring
Down on me at four in the morning
I'm not tired
But I can't seem to stop my self from yawning
And my day to day has just become too boring

I really don't want to sound like I'm just being ungrateful
Because there's a lot I still got and really I should be thankful
But my anger gets the best of me sometimes I feel unstable
One second I'm cracking jokes
Right before flipping the kitchen table
Half of the time I still feel like I'm being strangled
But it's my own two hands that I got wrapped around my throat
I'm alive today but what's the reason
Making music is my dream but truthfully
The only dream I have is me in bed scream ing staring at my ceiling
I don't know what to believe in
Life is a damn game and if there's a god somebody tell him to stop cheating
Isn't it clear that I should be the one isn't still fucking here breathing
I mean what the fuck am I not seeing
What could be the deeper meaning
I've got meaner demons
I rob cheat and deceive human beings
But you took him for speeding
Yo if you're up there you better start fucking speaking I mean it
Cuz now I have a weakness
And it seems that I'm breaking down into pieces
Jesus you're supposed to be a cosmic genius
But instead of the answers I'm coming to you saying I'm needing
I keep getting every fucking reason to keep on not believing it

Is it storming
Or is it just my insecurities that have been pouring
Down on me at four in the morning
I'm not tired
But I can't seem to stop my self from yawning
And my day to day has just become too boring
Is it storming
Or is it just my insecurities that have been pouring
Down on me at four in the morning
I'm not tired
But I can't seem to stop my self from yawning
And my day to day has just become too boring
Is it storming
Or is it just my insecurities that have been pouring
Down on me at four in the morning
I'm not tired
But I can't seem to stop my self from yawning
And my day to day has just become to boring