Million Tears

I've been up all night
Trying hard to cry
Thinking that might shed some light
But not a tear fell from my eye
And I've been trying to fight
This feeling I just can't describe
Never tried so hard for anything
In my life

But when I think of you
I'm used to the pain that I feel
These wounds don't hurt
But they're not healed
It's hard but it's the truth
Can't even feel my heart break
But I know that it's not
In one piece

So go ahead now
Throw my head against the wall
Push me down and watch me fall
Cuz I won't feel anything at all
Go ahead now
And tell the world about my pain
As if I feel it every single day
Go ahead, go ahead, now

It's almost like I'm numb
Your knife no longer cuts
I get no bruises from your punch
Or the words that roll off your tongue
And I don't know why
I've stayed for all this time
Don't wanna get used to being hurt
By another guy

So go ahead now
Throw my head against the wall
Push my down and watch me fall
Cuz I won't feel anything at all
Go ahead now
And tell the world about my pain
As if I feel it every single day
Go ahead, go ahead, now

A million tears ago
I should've left you I know
I couldn't let you go
Every promise that you broke
Every single word you spoke
Don't know why I didn't go
Maybe I think I deserve it
Maybe I'm not worth it
Maybe it's what I get

Go ahead now
Throw my head against the wall
Push my down and watch me fall
Cuz I won't feel anything at all
Go ahead now
And tell the world about my pain
As if I feel it every single day
Go ahead, go ahead, now

Go ahead go ahead
Go ahead now
Go ahead go ahead
Go ahead now
Go ahead go ahead
Go ahead go ahead
Now