Pen and Pad

Sometimes I wonder, if I could turn the hands
Would I still be chilling breaking bread with my mans
I know it's crazy how my past made me how I am
Now we got me in a conversation with the mirror man
It's hard to understand but I'll walk you through
But then again who am i, I'm just like you
Whatever, where do I begin
Should I start with the phony ass friends
Nah I'll start here beginning of one of the illest years
Where my life changed, maybe in the craziest ways
Me and the crew, acting wild 'bout the craziest things
Fun times, let's see, it was Q, me, B
Josh, T, Jose, Mark and D
Hey y'all remember when I knocked this dude about his timbs
That same year lost touch with a couple friends
They say that good memories, they can last a lifetime
So it inspired me to write a couple rhymes
If I can go back, would I go back
If I could change all that, would I show that
Well for now I'm living life through my pen and pad
I said for now I'm living life through my pen and pad
I wonder if I ever changed, this would I change that
Or would I do the same things and never turn back
Well all I know I'm living life through my pen and pad
I said for now I'm living life through my pen and pad
They say the past can open up your eyes
But then they say to me my past is what makes me wise
I guess I didn't want to let it seep into my brain
I felt some type of way when I've seen just what I became
It was problems after problems, niggas turn to snitches
In trouble with the law, providing snitches with some stitches
My game plan changed, and suddenly the only one I had
Was my nigga B, now that I'm sitting looking back
I don't think that he was there either
Drowning my thoughts in ether
Set it to blaze, full of rage, ain't no mind reader fucking needed
Fuck it, they all deleted
These bitches come around swear to me that I'm conceited
I tell them beat it like I'm Mike Jack
Cuz back then I wasn't needed, said my style wack? Who got the last laugh
They say that good memories, they can last a lifetime
So it inspired me to write a couple rhymes
If I can go back, would I go back
If I could change all that, would I show that
Well for now I'm living life through my pen and pad
I said for now I'm living life through my pen and pad
I wonder if I ever changed, this would I change that
Or would I do the same things and never turn back
Well all I know I'm living life through my pen and pad
I said for now I'm living life through my pen and pad