My Life

What do you want to do with your life
Like what are you trying to accomplish you know
Are you worried or scared about anything in your future
Is there anything that you're tryna do in your life or change

My life is doomed and it's just a matter of time
And I'm Tryna go find the light but I'm closing all of my blinds
I'm Going nowhere my life is just going down in the gutter
Always been a little dark out might as well close all my shutters
(Yea)

Now I'm feelin like i just don't got the passion now
Cause every time i rap i just feel like I'm always lashin out
And everybody thinkin i am somethin that I'm not
And my life is in destruction now
You might as well just watch
(Yea)

Cause i dont got the fucking things that you thought
I've been stuck up in my life and I'm stuck in this spot
Twisted and turnin my stomach has been stuck in this knot
And i keep on getting medicines that ain't for my cough
(Yea)

Cause i aint ever had no life glory
Never had no love story
This is just the way i feel

I dont know

And i aint ever had no jokes corny
Never had no hype story
My life's going downhill

Yea i know

And I've been dealing with these demons in my head
It's a fucking miracle that im alive and still ain't dead
But now I need some meds
To help me go fight against
All these monsters that been chillin all up and under my bed

I go to bed and i wake up and i still think about you
I sit and i lay and i wonder if you think about me
I say that i love you through my invisible ink
Man I've been thinking too much what the fuck's in my drink
(Damn)

I aint got no happiness
What the fuck is this
What the fuck is with all of these people fucking with my bliss

Fucking pricks
Now I'm fucking pissed
My life hit or miss
I cant make a smart decision like a teen in every horror flick

Now I'm fucking up my life
Yea you bet that's right

I fuck around with all of these mixtures up in my sprite
You say I'll probably hate it I'll bet you is fucking right

But if we're throwing bets away
I'll bet my fucking life
(Haha)

I've been waiting for something to fucking drastically happen
But I don't know if I'm working too hard or maybe just acting
Or Maybe i just need to find some fucking passion
Or maybe I give up and just start fucking relaxing

Tryna be boujee but Im a piece of fucking ratchet ass
Imma probably make these rhymes until I have a rap attack

Or a mid life crisis
Whichever fucking comes first
Imma keep on fucking going until my whole body hurts
(Yea)

Feelin real blessed
Or maybe feelin real cursed
I dont even really know cause they both are the worst
(Yea)

Here's to the day
I need a doctor and a nurse
Or until the day you see me whipping in a hearse

I don't really know what i wanna do with my life you know
I'm in this spot right now where I'm like stuck and i cant move
And it's like I'm watching my life happen right in front of me you know
But uh i guess i better figure it out soon