Days Like This

I've got to thank God for the life that I live
Cause I Came along way since Joiner and Fifth
And I just want to be a kid
But I've got to be the man
Cause now that I am a father
I want my son to understand
The reason that I do this shit
And became the way I am
Cause ever since a youngin'
Never had no one around
Who would actually listen to me
When I was feeling down
So my only way to cope
Was to find a bottle and drown
All my feelings inside of a glass
Just hoping that in time
This feeling would finally pass
Finding girls with insecurities
So I could get some ass
Then I'd let them meet my family
And they would always ask
If I think that she's the one
Or if she's just another one
Cause I'm kind of like my father
When I tend to jump the gun
But nothing like my father
Because I would never run
From my family like a coward
And not be there for my son
Cause I don't know how he could leave
Or exactly just what it was
Especially since he knew that mom was always on some drugs
So I grew up never knowing
What it meant to be loved
Because y'all would say it
But that was only every couple of months
So you found a new girl
Same runaround
Addictions and a cruel world
To bring an innocent child
But you went and did it anyway
And now my little sister has been sleeping in a public place
Or she at home with an addict mother
Someone who wants nothing to do with her
And it is killing me to know
She doesn't have a stable place
That she can call home
Or that her mother didn't care to lose her in the womb
She was smoking packs a day
And was having sex with a dude
Just to get a little fix
And feel a little buzz
And dad was out working
Thinking that he was in love
And now he lost it all
With hopes it falls in his lap
Without getting up
And actually try being a dad
But I do not need that from you
I've been good on my own
But my little sister needs that
More than you could ever know
So you can't give up now
You've fucked up a bunch of times
But this your comeback now
You need some fresh start money
Some off my art money
Found a girl to break it down
But never fall apart on me
I've been trying to find myself
Inside the man that almost died
I was a young lost boy who then
Found a way to come A.LiVE
And all my life
Has been a losing fight
I'm just trying to finally take control of my life
And so I'm doing everything I can
To prove to every one of you
That I'm just a man
Because my whole life
I have always been a screw up in their eyes
So I'm just hoping that this fix it
But the devil in my head telling me I'm gonna fail
So it's kind of hard to stay optimistic
So I keep my head high as I twist this
Little bit of weed in a backwood
Hoping to forget this
Situation in which I'm sitting
And I've been sipping crown
Hoping one day that I can make my son and sister proud
Cause I'd adopt her in a second
If they would allow
Me to take you out that shit
And put you up in my house
Asking god
Why you do this to an innocent child
I'm gonna be there for you any time
Whenever your down don't hesitate to call
I'm gonna be there for you through it all
And I'm just sorry that you couldn't be a kid
And I'm sorry that days had to be like this
Praying that my son will never see days like this