Walkintherain (feat. Paige)

Take a walk in the rain, just to see if I'll break
The people I call brother, out of no where turn to snakes
Everything got real and everyone turned fake
I ain't Stephen A. Smith, but here's my first take

Four hundred years, your hate remains strong
I think your parents hate me 'cause I tell em when they're wrong
So now I'm writing a song, while I'm riding along
In the back of the school bus, told her she ain't what I want
Words I can't get off the tip of my tongue, it's over girl
Tears hitting the floor like a storm, I broke the world
Nah, you broke me first, let's see who said what to who
If I told the world how fast you changed, I bet they'd change on you
It's been three weeks since, the last time we did our thing
I wish you woulda told me that you just wanted a fling
Cause now 14 months later, in a tub filled with blood
I gave you all my money, all my time, couldn't buy love
Oh, you just wanna love yourself, so you leave me in the rain
Now tell me go to hell, yeah you tell me that I changed
Since the past two weeks all I've felt is numb and pain
Girl, you the one who walked away, for your own selfish gain
I lost everything, and the year has just begun
Days it took me to lose it all, not even 21
It's the same with X, legends all gotta die
Like when I say Kobe now, if I miss that shit, I'd cry (Rest in peace)
Sides on they knees, lined up in threes
Everything I thought we had, was fake, guess that's on me
Cause I had it all planned, swear I would've been the man
Would've been your baby daddy, husband, but now it's all gone
Because I wanted to grow up, tour, settle down with you
But now I'm back to square one, not surprised, it's nothing new
Oh girl, you lied to me? when you think bout me you scream
Cause you thought that you broke me, but I'm still here rapping off beat
Nothing changed, it's funny right, stop tryna say it's not
Acting like a joke, girl, yeah, you acting like a thot
I ain't even gotta act, please don't lie to yourself
I took a walk in the rain, and found eternity in hell
Do I wanna live in pain or do I wanna kill myself
Feel this never ending shame, I really hope you're doing well
I can't take it anymore, I gotta take another pill
You took the I L Y from Philly, guess I'm going back to Phil

Take a walk in the rain, swear I ain't been the same
Everything's been different, since last Father's Day
I walked up to the door and saw you on the floor
Then daddy screamed, I guess now you're no more

Call 911 he said, screams still ringing in my head
Stumbling down the stairs sobbing, heart pounding out my chest
It's been 8 months since you left, thought you were stronger than that
Why'd you give in to death, you left me alone, with dad
Demons took your over your brain, hated seeing you in pain
I really wish that I could take it all away
Push my feelings so far down, hoping they never come out
But I'm breaking now, ma, my tears are steady pouring down
Everybody in my life, leaves or dies or both
I fell hard for a fuck boy, somehow I'm breaking when I'm broke
Sayin oh I miss you, bet you just want me for my throat
Love's a four letter word, couldn't hit water off a boat
Say you miss me one day, but then fuck a hoe the next
Mental breakdowns coming and goin, fucking daily from relapse
I don't wanna feel this way, so I numb the pain with drugs
I just wanna be okay, but guess who don't deserve love
Lately, just wanna die, suicide been on my mind
Wish my mom gave me a hug, oh, just one more, one last time
I don't feel shit anymore, 'cause there's no way to show my pain
I still miss him, fuck, even if he don't feel the same
Loneliness creeps in at night, and I know it won't end
I'm just tryna straighten out the mess that's stuck inside my head
I don't need no one anyways, they tried to help, I ran
Because they keep saying sorry, they could never understand

My minds beating me up, like I'm stuck in detention
And I keep stressing over shit that don't need my attention
Reality gets blurry, just wanna know that you heard me
When I said I love you too, even if you did me dirty