The Last Night

A million houses
A million roads
I've been counting up the
Reasons why I shouldn't lie anymore

Shameful
God it's painful
I hate it when you look at me like I am not who I was before

A hundred memories
I never gave you
So hold them
Long enough for me to not feel so alone

Waiting
In your doorway
It's the last night
That you won't know

I'm hoping you can make me feel better
Don't run away with the things I tell you

Something's different
I'm a stranger
Living in my parents house they don't know me anymore

Constantly
Reflecting
Never finding resolution and never knowing more

Every
Night is similar
I watch you dying never knowing I lied then

Walking
Walking nowhere
Just to get air
Just to go

I'm hoping you can make me feel better
Don't run away with the things I tell you

I know you've noticed
That I am nervous
That I will always lock the door before I go to bed

Taking
Calls from backyards
Or out in the car so you can't hear

I've wanted
Just to tell you
So you can hold me
Like I'm a kid

A million ways to
Say you love me
A million ways to keep it hid

I'm hoping you can make me feel better
Don't run away with the things I tell you