Emotional Healing

Stuck inside
Compromised
Broke as hell
Empty shelves
Gotta try to find the light in something
Try again
Call your friends
Plan ahead
For if you leave your bed
If you can stop your thoughts from coming
I have nothing
My brain's started running
Just tryna feel better each day
Though my words are empty
I got thoughts a plenty
But I can't seem to make a good one stay
So just
Put me in the back and then I'll make another track
And talk about a distant trauma that I hate
Run through all the motions and just fight my own devotion
To tryna be better as of late
He says cope with your feelings
It's emotional healing
But I don't wanna suffocate
Under pressure that I'm under
Got depression like my mama
Though a diagnosis seems too much
I don't wanna medicate
Just to dilute my self hate
When there's a side of me that I don't touch
He says cope with your feelings
Try emotional healing
But I'm afraid it's just too late
Read a book
Write a note
Tell yourself that you like the smoke
Coming from a fire deep inside
It burns your walls
They don't fall down
You wear the ash like a flower crown
Easy to hide pain under pride
I have nothing
My brain's started running
Just tryna feel better each day
Though my words are empty
I got thoughts a plenty
But I can't seem to make a good one stay
Could you line up a new guy and he might make it through the night
He'll talk about the sapphire colour of my eyes
Run through all the motions he'll just vent his own emotions
Then at least he'll distract me from mine
He'll say I don't talk feelings
He don't find it appealing
But I don't wanna suffocate
Under pressure that I'm under
Got depression like my mama
Though a diagnosis seems too much
I don't wanna medicate
Just to dilute my self hate
When there's a side of me that I don't touch
He says cope with your feelings
Try emotional healing
But I'm afraid it's just too late