Jaws of Defeat

If I drop the ball
I won't escape the jaws of defeat
Got to hit the wall
Before I get to fall
The heaviness is haul

My mind is a circus
Sad clown reason freaks us
Tight rope fall but I never crash
Light hope I stall because I linger brash
All I ever wanted was better prospects
Called by other haunted cause and bitter projects
On the edge and the crowd keeps pushing
Back against the wall staring at the pit
I engage let the clouds be my cushions
If I drop the ball
I won't escape the jaws of defeat

Got to hit the wall
Before I get to fall
The heaviness is haul

Couple of dollars swimming around me
I know that they need it but they need a holla
World treat me like I'm a dog
Coping they take off the collar
Throw me a follow
I have been hollow since I was alive
Cross to my heart pray that I gotta die
A sacrifice
Adding some spice
Mix up the tempo the beat going nice
Not Mr Stenbo I be a good guy
I ain't Lornezo I'm thin terms of size
Brothers ain't wise
Talk to me like I'm a dead man
Making these tracks to the ends man
Whip up all the dough cook it in a pan
Left hook but don't call me Peter Pan
Better watch what that mouth do
Close it shut till u stop the loud hoons
Not a PowToon because I ain't animated
I got one emotion and it's frustrated
At the world telling me it's hesitating
Can we fix it or are we forever waiting
While we're here me and you maybe do some mating
Come back to the crib and we do some baking

And you know I could do this all night
But shorty's pussy is too tight
Thought I had a big tool right
But she said I did alright

This hit you different when life is trying to bake you
I whip it and flip it and take you by the hand
You can squeeze it or leave it
It's a bargain girl
Soul sold to the devil
It's better than give it to a label
Check my timetable death is already scheduled
When I was a child I used to get sucked by the boogie man
Motherfucker ain't got no monsters in my bed

If I drop the ball
I won't escape the jaws of defeat
Got to hit the wall
Before I get to fall
The heaviness is haul

This concludes the first act of Esvi's Nocturne
The gripping emotion behind the apologetic
But yet romantic storytelling
Outlines perfectly the needed closure of a past relationship
The crescendo in last section of the piano score
Dramatically portrays how the young author
Chose not to yield to his demons and depression
Gathering his very last strengths
He won that battle on the razor's edge
And can now move on