Before I Exit

You know to me
It's all about
The lives we touch while we're here
So before I exit
Yeah
Look

Mexicans called me Chino, to Chinese, I was Guck
My family thought I was actin' black when I was just tryna' live my truth
I was tryna' do what it do, just tryna' show and prove
Yeah I'm different y'all, but it's no difference dog, when my different's same as you
It was cops and robbers, power rangers, playin' house like mom and dad
I ate pizza squares, chicken nuggets, drank chocolate milk right out the bag
Had my heart broke, five times, by four girls
You could do the math
I done lost hope, too many times but more than that
I always found it back
My life ain't perfect but I can't imagine any other
See the world ain't black and white, it's filled with every color
It's filled with shit, it's filled with piss
But also love, also joy
It's filled with choices that we make
So I'd rather build, than destroy
I'd rather break bread and make it
Yeah, give love, then take it
I'd rather keep quiet with nothin' good, then open wide and say it
I'd rather it be no hatred, I'd rather they not be racist
I'd rather no systematic oppression like what the United States is
Man, I was born here, the greatest nation, but I still demand greater
Like I do for myself, do for my tribe, my tribe in all places
My tribe be all kinds, all shapes and all colors
All flavors, all faces, all one of sun
We are stars reincarnated
But yo' I ain't no saint, talk a good game, but I ain't
I'm just a person tryin' to figure out ways on how to deal with this pain
Like I'm the type to walk in a room, have everyone know me
You might think it's to be cool, but I just hate being lonely
I used to daydream about my funeral with like everyone there
Watchin' to see if they cry, let me know that they care
I think a lot about who'll miss me and all the good I done done
And then I'm back into this moment with all the coulda woulda shoulds I run from
Like am I even doing enough, with all the privilege I have
As a cisgendered, heterosexual, middle class man?
Who am I to be complainin'?
Woe is me with my guilt
I ain't ask for no pity
I'm just keepin' it real with my feels
Shit, my ex knows, she used to put up with this crazy
How I say more in these songs than I do in conversations
It's how I honor my human?, honor my emotions
Take all I've been through and put that trauma into poems
So this is poetry in motion, my performance, a spectacle
I give you my life story every song is an episode
Every verse marked with points And each point be impeccable
But my rhymes ain't shit unless they intersectional
So you can miss me while the hype if it ain't 'bout inclusion
I know my speech cast spells and that there's power in music
If the topic of discussion's about our future
You can bet I'ma leave my mark on how it's influenced
Shit, I ain't sayin' I know it all
But this much I hold true
A trillion stars in the universe
Not one like you
So when it comes to my purpose
It's clearer than it's ever been
Before I exit this world
Leave lives better than I entered them