Lord Why

Sometimes when im alone i just cry
I look up to heaven and ask why
Dear lord I dont know what to pray
But why is life this way

I remember not having much to eat
But momma made happen every day of the week
She was a soldier I never seen her cry
Even when she was on her very last dime
She would tell me that life would get better
Just be steadfast, Pray and keep my head up
Those words they were hella encouraging
Especially when we went
From a house to a bus bench
My teens years growing up i lost my daddy
He wasn't dead he just left and got another family
He didn't notice all this pain I had inside
I wore a good smile and started to get high
Then my tears would just fade away
Lord knows how i miss my granny every fuckin day
What i wouldn't do to get another phone call
I be trynna stay strong
But times im like lets end it all

Sometimes when im alone i just cry
I look up to heaven and ask why
Dear lord I dont know what to pray
But why is life this way

Im older and hopefully a little wiser now
Im not even the same kid i once was
Done a lot of things
I've even sold some drugs
A lot of shit im not proud of
I had a baby and nobody knew
If momma would've known
She would've beat me black and blue
Its okay it was a learning experience
Showed me not to trust a man
Especially them light skins
Ives taken some beatings by life
Its so much shit
Ion even know what to write
Im always there for people when they need me
But I turn around y'all niggas is absentees
Dont try to be my friend
Once you see my name on a marquee
Or Be like you remember me
Cause imma just ignore yo ass
Oh and shit aint free, bitch

Sometimes I cry
Sometimes I look up and ask
Lord why please tell me why
Sometimes I cry
Sometimes I look up and ask
Lord why please tell me why