Sometimes

I got some things that i need to get off my chest
So maybe at the end of the day i can finally get some rest
But seems to be impossible since my mental state is horrid
And my body is consumed with all this stress

Ive got all these questions lurking in my mind
Ive done my best to leave them all behind
But why is my best never sufficient
Why is it that I've gotten so distant
Why have i been put in this position thats on a track thats constantly drifting
But i need you to hear me out so sit back and listen

Im just a man on a mission with a massive vision
Tryna figure out what the hell is missin
But at times i have no ambition
I have a problem with commitment
Cuz i roam this earth tryna solve the mystery of my existence

Its hard moving forward when hate yourself
Its hard looking in the mirror knowin you aint well
Its hard when all you do is just overthink and dwell
On things you know you shouldn't be but I'm stuck in this cell

Imagine waking up every morning feeling worthless
Just a wondering soul that doesn't seem to have a purpose
My life is a circus
Im in need of some service
Cant read the signs
Looks like terrible cursive

I find no comfort in this sobriety
So i drown myself in the bottles by a variety
Then smoke another one to help calm the anxiety
But still have a broken spirit thats trapped inside of me

So i just wanna runaway and fuckin hide
Sometimes i need to scream and let out a good cry
So the pain in my heart will suppress and finally die
But i know these demons won't leave me alone and say goodbye

Yeah i wish i could just man up and change me
But its difficult when everything is hazy
Its crazy cuz I've come to this logic
Maybe I'm in this situation cuz I'm the one thats toxic

Now i understand the phrase of growing pains
No life it will never be the same
Like they say what doesn't kill makes you stronger
Still in the process of learning how to fuckin conquer