This Is Love

I was trying to remember the last thing you said
As you walked up the stairwell that led to your bed
And I laughed, all alone

At the words never mentioned, but often rehearsed
Like an expectant mother, with only stillbirth
And the sun rose

I was walking aimlessly
I was lonely
And the sun rose, just for me

I was under the incline and under your spell
And those half-hearted love songs I never sang well
I will sing, all alone

I wish you'd come down the stairwell and take me by the hand
And we'd scream to the darkness as loud as we can
This is love, I will never be alone
This is love, I will never be alone

Walking aimlessly
I was lonely
And the sun rose, just for me

I was walking aimlessly
I was lonely
And the sun rose, just for me
Just for me

(I wish I wasn't a wreck since you left, since you left)

(Deliberate practice is still really hard
You tell me you love me and catch me off-guard
Take my advice and I'll try to take yours
In a moment of silence face-down on the floor)

(A light behind the door, tell me what it's for)

(I'm swallowing poison, hope my enemies die
I'm making decisions I can't justify
But I'm not alone in this big awful mess
'Cause I've got a friend and she loves me the best)

(I am holding onto something
Greater than myself
Hope is hard to come by these days
Calling for some help)

(I'm counting my blessings by twos and by tens
I'm seeing my life through a scratch on the lens
I'm leaning in close to the people who ache
The Lord's present in weakness and all my mistakes)

(Would you say, would you say, would you say?)

(It's bitter in winter, the cross of our king
The knowledge that darkness affects everything
You're quick to be angry, your grandmother's gift
All people on earth, from the cup we all sip)