6HRS - 1st Movement

I hate myself every morning
But give me a second to change
please, thanks, excuse me, I'm sorry
Yeah I know, how to fool
Crooked Smile even now I don't know is real
But I don't like to think about it.
If someone could save me from myself, I wish they would
But I'm either overthinking or misunderstood
All of the lies I place with caution won't stay put
6 hours and it's out of my hands
6 hours til I'll wake again
Last Door down the hall
New frames on the walls
But It's always the same.
Lost pride and self control
Bitter pill but down it goes
A familiar taste.
Down at the water I'll drowse and drift away
I'd take the fault if I drown and so I pray
Knees pressed to the floor
I'm begging you but I'm sure
That I know what you'd say

I know, I know that I've been better off
To tell the truth I'm insecure and just a bit dishonest
But maybe more honest than I should've been
I know, I know that I am bitter often
I know I never seem to finish what I always start
I know I shouldn't show my hand before I see the cards
But I couldn't help myself and now I think it's over
Pull focus, I'm always thinking, I'm overloaded
I could fall through the cracks, through the glass, sinking fast
Thinking I'm overdue, overdone, overthink everything that I was
I wanted something more than I could see
Maybe it's more than I am or I could be
Do you think you could see me?
Do you think you could see me?
In color not black and white since I was born
But now there's no feeling
yet feels like I'm losing a part of myself
Said I used to know me, I used to know who I was
Patience and grace is now burdensome
Nothing but burden under the sun
So I turn the key and just let it run.