Obsessed

This late in the day, throw caution aside
Who cares what I say?
Not shocked or ashamed, concerned still am I
I crave what I crave

Love up to my knees and then overhead
Just praise when you speak
Though privileged I fight, though passive it seems
Desire to please, insatiable someone

And the chance to get to make out
Is this a sign that I'm obsessed?
An obvious yes
Past spells I cast have paid out
I truly need attention bad
I'm just too shy to ask

Remembering when I came to believe in passion again
A name that's in jest though seriously
My love is expressed, I'm serious baby

My life is a LARP now
Though really inside you
I'm really this person
You turned me inside out
Don't ask me about him
You know more than I do
It's best to keep silent
'Bout what he had gone through

You see, blood runs cold in the comfort of the backroom
Do you actually think I would've made it this far without you?

I was raised by Polish Catholics
No one taught me how to sing, obviously
Dear spotlight, you can go now
I'm tired of what this life can bring
And bored of everything

Bored and back to time, I swear
This time you're at the center
One life and a single breath
It's all so deep, this time together for you

(Hey, check-check)
(You hear me)
(You know...)
(Been there)
(Still there)
(Yeah, don't see me)

Eyes closed in contradiction
Life's passion, life is pain
It's one in the same
This past one's been a bad one
I question how we'll carry on

My will has not been strong, at least not since our last time
Is this a sign that I'm obsessed?
An obvious yes
Past spells I cast have paid out
I truly need attention bad
I'm just too shy to ask