I'm Sorry

I'm trying to say I'm sorry
So Where should I begin?
Do I start by listing all my sins
Should I go alphabetically or maybe chronologically
Cause I got way too many things so need to share within
I used to carry baggage, I would take on every mission
It had my dirty laundry that was hidden in the zippers
It was like a carry on and if you let me carry on
I would always unpack it for anyone who'd listen
Even take it home for Christmas
It's where I used to store all the hatred and poisonous arrogance I was thinking
I used to play the victim
But I didn't realize that I was dying the inside, blinded by decisions
That never made me better
That only made me bitter
They stayed in me forever
And made me to a sinner
With Each and every critic making me a greater cynic
Cause no matter what I did they hated each and every lyric
So what did I do? I took it out on you
Couldn't blame myself, I didn't want the truth
It's easier to take it that to earn it
To fake it than to learn it
To break it and to burn it
Than to make it to the surface
It took a long time I was on the wrong side
But I really want to tell you I know you don't deserve it
I'm Sorry that I hurt you and I took you all for granted.
I promise I can see it really wasn't worth it

I need to learn to say I'm sorry
I was wrong
I was quick the blame the people all around me when really I was the problem all along

I burned so many bridges, I cut too many ties
I can't even go back, I don't know how long
I've always been the loudest,
I've always been the proudest,
And now I'm all alone and I'm so far gone
Used to say I don't need you, I'll do it on my own
Even got used to saying it in all my songs
Now I need you near me, I know that you can hear me
I hope that you've forgiven me and all my wrongs
I was just a boy, I didn't understand
I still had to learn, until I was a man
That every time you fall, you always have to stand
And always take your time, and always make a plan
Stop living in the future and be present in the present cause the moment that passes becomes your past
And every moment is the moment when you notice that your growing so you need to make that moment last
It's lonely at the top
It's also lonely at the bottom
Cause misery loves company and everyone who'd comfort me was there to see my sorrow
So I decided I should stop, and I'm coming home tomorrow
And I plan to pay you back for ever day and every hour ever minute that I borrowed

I need to learn to say I'm sorry
I was wrong
I was quick the blame the people all around me when really I was the problem all along