Saint Rubio

Yeah, before I get started
I'm a need ya'll to know something
Yeah, alright, yeah the sad shit was the old me
Rolled with people thought we're my homies
People try to put me in a box like the rest
They can't fill me in like a bubble sheet test
Told me I was dumb cause I got D's and F's
When I wrote then spoke, I always did impress
When I wore that hat y'all suddenly knew me
Judged before y'all got to know the true me
So y'all threw threats and said fuck it screw me
And this part for the girls that just blew me
My heats been broken about two times three
I still got love to the girls that denied me
Y'all weren't the issue, I was my own sickness
And I know that my words can be so vicious
When I speak on you women, call you bitches
Just know, I ain't never meant to burn the bridges
But also please don't get my words so twisted
Yes I love y'all, but no I don't miss you
But when I'm up late it does come across
About how many of the people I have lost
All the promises and dreams that I've tossed
All because of my pride but at what cost
Knowing I can never get the chance to say sorry
So I'm sorry Gonzalo and I'm sorry Mari
I'm sorry for the friends I wasn't their for hardly
And not just to my friends but to everybody
Cause I don't wanna die with this resentment
Knowing that I never tried at least to fix it
Put the pride aside, I just want your attention
I know I said some things but never meant it
My life has changed since I was a freshmen
After the car accident, I learned my lesson
But I'm afraid my life might be near it's ending
I know I'm not a saint, but at least I'm trying

And I'm trying (Trying)
But it can be so hard (So hard)
When your not even giving (Giving)
A second chance to show who you are
When the night falls no one can save us
Cause when the sun goes down it will chase us
And we look to the sky for are savior (Savior)
I need someone to save us

Where is god when you need him the most
Is what I thought ever time that I wrote
And all the time where I felt like I was alone
Now that I'm grown, I still feel on my own
Went down a path, I couldn't make it back home
Endless nights of me getting faded and wasted
Stressing about the person that I've created
Inside my mind filled with confusion and hatred
So at this point I'm spilling out all my secrets
I'm the most sacred when I'm acting fearless
I see my own kindness as my only weakness
Trust me I still get nights where I'm sleepless
Wish I could turn back time to avoid my regrets
But I can't, so I stick to getting my revenge
I think I worry to much about my own success
And not about my family members and friends
Cause I'll admit while climbing up the latter
I sometime tend to forget what really matters
So God bless my parents that never separated
Y'all might argue but what couple can't relate
To my big brother who's incarcerated
I'll be out here, waiting for your release date
Friends more like family even if we unrelated
To my sisters that showed the love never the hate
I know I have an addiction of always playing victim
Of always putting myself in this position
Never being grateful for what I was given
Thats why I had to find God and religion
Like Jesus I had to fall so I could be risen
So go back and listen to the shit I've written
The sunshine comes after the dark storm
It was just time for me to be reborn

And I'm trying (Trying)
But it can be so hard (So hard)
When your not even giving (Giving)
A second chance to show who you are
When the night falls no one can save us
Cause when the sun goes down it will chase us
And we look to the sky for are savior (Savior)
I need someone to save us